And I would like to make Chris' freakish habits public
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
That spec on the wall
Annoyed. Annoyed and bored. Those are my two main feelings right now. Not to mention that I am hungry and tired and overall not in a very good mood. It kinda takes a lot for me to be in a bad mood... ah who am I kidding, it doesn't, a least not any more. I would say I'm not usually in a BAD mood, but I always feel like something isn't here. Anyway, I just would like to express my annoyedness. And thanks to one person in particular, they just increased my annoyance level. Thanks a lot d bag. But mainly it's just a lot of little things that compile that add up to my DEMISE! No, just kidding. Well it's Easter weekend and I am at home having a great time...my rabbit and I just hanging out. Hopefully the cousins are coming soon, I'm really excited to see them.
Excitement aside I have a very serious issue I need to put down in words. I have been sober for a very long time. Now, I don't know how I feel about this issue, I mean it's been so long at this point I don't even want to comsume those alcoholic beverages that I once adored any longer. I know, it's somewhat numbing to read this. It almost feels that way to write it, yet I just don't feel the urge anymore. I mean I should just quit while I'm ahead... wait that made little or no sense whatsoever. What I was getting at is that I don't need to drink for a good time. I create my own. Well it feels good to get that issue off my chest and I hope that I can continue my unintoxicated life with ease and pleasure.
But I do have a boring situation going on right now. And I will tell you what it is. My life. It's just a minor detail, but something I should be a little concerned with anyway. I think that I should take action, yet I'm not quite sure how, you see there are a couple things that tend to get in the way. I usually refer to them as school and swimming but they might as well be refered to as HELL and DEATH. Or the firey pit of doom and torture. Whatever they are called they are kind of getting in the way of what I want to be doing with my life. What do I want to be doing you might ask? Well I don't want to go to school and I'm not so much in the mood to swim. So anything but that and I would be happy.
Well my butt hurts from this chair...so I'm going to go eat...or do something productive such as that. I will probably be back when my bordem comes back full blast again. Bye.
Excitement aside I have a very serious issue I need to put down in words. I have been sober for a very long time. Now, I don't know how I feel about this issue, I mean it's been so long at this point I don't even want to comsume those alcoholic beverages that I once adored any longer. I know, it's somewhat numbing to read this. It almost feels that way to write it, yet I just don't feel the urge anymore. I mean I should just quit while I'm ahead... wait that made little or no sense whatsoever. What I was getting at is that I don't need to drink for a good time. I create my own. Well it feels good to get that issue off my chest and I hope that I can continue my unintoxicated life with ease and pleasure.
But I do have a boring situation going on right now. And I will tell you what it is. My life. It's just a minor detail, but something I should be a little concerned with anyway. I think that I should take action, yet I'm not quite sure how, you see there are a couple things that tend to get in the way. I usually refer to them as school and swimming but they might as well be refered to as HELL and DEATH. Or the firey pit of doom and torture. Whatever they are called they are kind of getting in the way of what I want to be doing with my life. What do I want to be doing you might ask? Well I don't want to go to school and I'm not so much in the mood to swim. So anything but that and I would be happy.
Well my butt hurts from this chair...so I'm going to go eat...or do something productive such as that. I will probably be back when my bordem comes back full blast again. Bye.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Body clock
Ok, well aside from having a not-very-functional body clock right now, that is what I decided to title this poem. So here goes.
Cracks creep up the wall
Seeping through the
Powdery Maroon
As the stale air clings
To the shadow
That creeps upon
Twlight
Dripping through
Thick fog and
Smeering crystal light
Over the ebony that
Cradles the land
Fading into an
Ancient mystery as
Time waits
Yet the echo of
Rhythmic clocks tick
And memories engulf
The darkness
Tragic tears spill
Reflecting a glimmer of hope
That reverberates off the
Mirrored walls
And clings like fresh mist
Rolling the beads of dew
Into the depth that
Morphs
Melts
Hardens into stone
And the ruby soul
Flicks against the ivory
Secronizing with harmony
Within the machine
That creates the spec
Of existance
Who dances to the bitter
Flavor
By the dimmness of the
White light as the
Giant thumb
Is tapping
Tapping
To the music
Of the earth
The planets
As he writes a
Synphony
For the gripless
galaxy
Yeah that was kinda long. Sorry. Also spell checker isn't working, so my spelling is horrible. Welp I have to go to class again...and leave my pathetic attempt at poem writing. And yes, that was supposed to represent something again, it's not that hard to see. Ah my freaking computer is being dumb. CRAP. Well laters!
Cracks creep up the wall
Seeping through the
Powdery Maroon
As the stale air clings
To the shadow
That creeps upon
Twlight
Dripping through
Thick fog and
Smeering crystal light
Over the ebony that
Cradles the land
Fading into an
Ancient mystery as
Time waits
Yet the echo of
Rhythmic clocks tick
And memories engulf
The darkness
Tragic tears spill
Reflecting a glimmer of hope
That reverberates off the
Mirrored walls
And clings like fresh mist
Rolling the beads of dew
Into the depth that
Morphs
Melts
Hardens into stone
And the ruby soul
Flicks against the ivory
Secronizing with harmony
Within the machine
That creates the spec
Of existance
Who dances to the bitter
Flavor
By the dimmness of the
White light as the
Giant thumb
Is tapping
Tapping
To the music
Of the earth
The planets
As he writes a
Synphony
For the gripless
galaxy
Yeah that was kinda long. Sorry. Also spell checker isn't working, so my spelling is horrible. Welp I have to go to class again...and leave my pathetic attempt at poem writing. And yes, that was supposed to represent something again, it's not that hard to see. Ah my freaking computer is being dumb. CRAP. Well laters!
Steaming
I shouldn't have written that list because high speed internet isn't as good as everyone may think. Especially when you spend SEVEN HOURS at the computer place trying to get ride of stupid viruses and spy wear. I wanted to die. Yesterday was the longest day of my life. I will breify show my schedule:
5:30 am WAKE UP
6-7:30 SWIMMING
7:30-9:00 come back, shower do some last min hw, breakfast
9-2 CLASS
2-3 lunch
3:30-10:30 computer place
10:30-11:30 trying to get spy bot to run on my freaking computer
AND THEN BED. Where I woke up every 20 mins because I was parnoid about my computer. Ah what a day. And now I have come back from practice on day 3 of this long week and I just would like to pull out a few poems. One of them was written in class for our assignment (so if it seems weird just disreguard) and the other one was written in the seven hours I was sitting doing nothing. I decided to do something and it took me all of twenty minutes and then, once again I had nothing to do.
Aburn grains sink into my feet
Salty spray of the deep sea
No buildings, just a house
Sitting on top of a dream
But there is a nightmare
He fell through the wall
Mysical powers
Given to the man at the circus
Could he help my friend?
Or would he be able to
Show me the math
What is the equation for swimming
Too far?
Trouble brews from
Cheating
But not from the old smell
From our past
As infatuation takes over
But then
I cussed those boys out
Anger
Doesn't quite describe
Naive
Maybe
There weren't any fish
But we fished anyway
In the icy banks
Of the river where
I almost just flowed
Away
With the glistening heart
Of the current
Then there was the
Three years
In a row
Where I liked him
Where is he now?
I'm not sure bcause
I was laughing too hard
About that
Jumping snail
That she just couldn't do
Off the diving board.
So there it is, my childhood...sorta. I have another one, so I will come back and post that but I have to get ready for a little thing we call class. Plant life here I come! Bye.
5:30 am WAKE UP
6-7:30 SWIMMING
7:30-9:00 come back, shower do some last min hw, breakfast
9-2 CLASS
2-3 lunch
3:30-10:30 computer place
10:30-11:30 trying to get spy bot to run on my freaking computer
AND THEN BED. Where I woke up every 20 mins because I was parnoid about my computer. Ah what a day. And now I have come back from practice on day 3 of this long week and I just would like to pull out a few poems. One of them was written in class for our assignment (so if it seems weird just disreguard) and the other one was written in the seven hours I was sitting doing nothing. I decided to do something and it took me all of twenty minutes and then, once again I had nothing to do.
Aburn grains sink into my feet
Salty spray of the deep sea
No buildings, just a house
Sitting on top of a dream
But there is a nightmare
He fell through the wall
Mysical powers
Given to the man at the circus
Could he help my friend?
Or would he be able to
Show me the math
What is the equation for swimming
Too far?
Trouble brews from
Cheating
But not from the old smell
From our past
As infatuation takes over
But then
I cussed those boys out
Anger
Doesn't quite describe
Naive
Maybe
There weren't any fish
But we fished anyway
In the icy banks
Of the river where
I almost just flowed
Away
With the glistening heart
Of the current
Then there was the
Three years
In a row
Where I liked him
Where is he now?
I'm not sure bcause
I was laughing too hard
About that
Jumping snail
That she just couldn't do
Off the diving board.
So there it is, my childhood...sorta. I have another one, so I will come back and post that but I have to get ready for a little thing we call class. Plant life here I come! Bye.
Monday, March 21, 2005
Back in the swamp...
Walking home from class in the bitter cold wind storm Kristin and I started talking about the things we like about being back at school and the things we don't like. So I decided I was going to make a list... so here it goes.
What I like about being back in Fort Fun:
1. High speed internet
2. Better water pressure
3. The rec center is near...
4. They filled the lake, it looks a lot nicer
5. A good view of the mountians
6. My pillow here is more comfortable
7. I don't have a cerfew
8. My friends are all in one place
9. Hot boys all around (well not ALL around...but around)
10. Um... I am having a hard time...let's move on
Reasons why I don't like being here:
1. SCHOOL
2. The damn wind
3. I miss my friends and family back home
4. Did I mention school already? And homework (that I never do)
5. It's hard to shave in the showers here
6. Swim practice
7. I am sick of dorm food
8. Walking to class
9. Waiting for the bathroom (even though that never happens, it is now)
10. I miss my dogs
11. I don't have a car
Ok already that's enough. Main point is that I hate school. And I am failing out. So I should get going on that homework thing everyone is always talking about. I think I'm going to try it out even though I know I will hate it. Also I still haven't registered my bike and I meant to do that the first day of school...so I will go do that later too. Because today is my last day of doing absoutely NOTHING! Because practice starts tomorrow. O no.
OK well here I go to do something productive, so see ya lata!
What I like about being back in Fort Fun:
1. High speed internet
2. Better water pressure
3. The rec center is near...
4. They filled the lake, it looks a lot nicer
5. A good view of the mountians
6. My pillow here is more comfortable
7. I don't have a cerfew
8. My friends are all in one place
9. Hot boys all around (well not ALL around...but around)
10. Um... I am having a hard time...let's move on
Reasons why I don't like being here:
1. SCHOOL
2. The damn wind
3. I miss my friends and family back home
4. Did I mention school already? And homework (that I never do)
5. It's hard to shave in the showers here
6. Swim practice
7. I am sick of dorm food
8. Walking to class
9. Waiting for the bathroom (even though that never happens, it is now)
10. I miss my dogs
11. I don't have a car
Ok already that's enough. Main point is that I hate school. And I am failing out. So I should get going on that homework thing everyone is always talking about. I think I'm going to try it out even though I know I will hate it. Also I still haven't registered my bike and I meant to do that the first day of school...so I will go do that later too. Because today is my last day of doing absoutely NOTHING! Because practice starts tomorrow. O no.
OK well here I go to do something productive, so see ya lata!
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Wishing it wasn't over
Well it's over. I am so depressed. I can't believe how fast time flies when you're having fun. So there was spring break, but luckily we have less than two months before school is out. Thank the Lord. But they are going to be a long, stressful two months. With spring training starting up and the papers, speeches, tests and projects will be loaded on. BOO.
So yeah the break was really nice. The first weekend I went to starbucks with Chris right when I got back and then went to Boulder for a fun Saturday night. All I can say is HOT DAMN. And why did I dance on the table? WHY? I have a little battle wound from walking home in the snow. In a skirt...and flip flops. It was a Cancun party OK?! Drop it. But it was fun and it was really good to see Elise and Jer and party with them. Sunday we had a surprise party for my grandma's 80th, and let's just say she was pretty surprised. She looked like she was about to have a heart attack, that would have been bad. But it was really good too, it was nice to see the cousins and aunts and uncles...and second cousins...and their kid's kids...
Anyway, that was the day I wanted to go up to Vail to visit Jim since I haven't seen him since August, but the parental units strongly advised against it. So instead I hung out with people, Kristin and I watched the longest movie ever--Troy. At least Brad Pitt looked smoldering sexy and it was the best comedy of the year haha. Went to meet people for lunch one day (Lauren S, Jeremy, my brothers and then Lyle for starbucks) so it was nice to see them. I went to Jenn's with Kristin and went hot tubbing and watched a movie, ran stairs with Lauren the next day (hurts the lungs), played in the sandbox with my dogs and worked out in my room one day.
Thursday I went to Vail with Nathan and Chris, which was really fun. We got to see Jim and we went to dinner with him and rode the gondoloa up to the top of the mountian and walked around up there. We were really goofy the whole night, I don't know what the deal was. But it was a lot of fun. The next day we went skiing at Copper, I had to ski alone. I know, so sad. Kristin and I kept just missing each other. O, but the day started out really bad because I am an idiot and I forgot my boots at Jim's in Vail, so we ended up driving over Vail pass six different times that day. I felt really bad and Nathan was pretty pissed to say the least. So after skiing we went back to Jim's and later Lyle and Susan came and we went to dinner and then headed back home. We had a nice long talk on the way home, I really miss those guys and it was nice to be with them. And it was refreshing to see Jimmy, he was reassurring as always and he made me feel better about things. It was just nice to be with him and I hope he comes back this summer, because his coaching is what kept me going. Needless to say I miss him tons too.
Saturday was another extravaganza in itself because Jen's boyfriend missed his flight because the stupid shuttle was late and we all ended up going to lunch, which was good. Before that though Lauren and I drove circles around the airport for more than an hour. But man do I know the airport well now! So he got a flight later and we ate at Lauren's, went to Andy's for a while and came back to my house and just drove around and then they left and that my friends, was my spring break. Earlier today Ashley came to say hi/bye so I was really excited I got to see her for a minute.
O yeah, and the movie Robots--no good. My brothers and I went to see it and it wasn't really worth it. O man am I tired. And I get to do homework now! YES! My favorite. One week and then I am going home again for Easter, and I'm excited because the family will all be here so it should be fun. Plus I have a shopping date with my mom. But I will have picutures when I finish my roll, I didn't do a very good job with taking them so it will be a little bit. K well I am going to go do homework but I wish we had another week for break. I don't wanna......o no 6 am practice. What a great way to start the week with! Ugg. Ok I will be back. Adios.
So yeah the break was really nice. The first weekend I went to starbucks with Chris right when I got back and then went to Boulder for a fun Saturday night. All I can say is HOT DAMN. And why did I dance on the table? WHY? I have a little battle wound from walking home in the snow. In a skirt...and flip flops. It was a Cancun party OK?! Drop it. But it was fun and it was really good to see Elise and Jer and party with them. Sunday we had a surprise party for my grandma's 80th, and let's just say she was pretty surprised. She looked like she was about to have a heart attack, that would have been bad. But it was really good too, it was nice to see the cousins and aunts and uncles...and second cousins...and their kid's kids...
Anyway, that was the day I wanted to go up to Vail to visit Jim since I haven't seen him since August, but the parental units strongly advised against it. So instead I hung out with people, Kristin and I watched the longest movie ever--Troy. At least Brad Pitt looked smoldering sexy and it was the best comedy of the year haha. Went to meet people for lunch one day (Lauren S, Jeremy, my brothers and then Lyle for starbucks) so it was nice to see them. I went to Jenn's with Kristin and went hot tubbing and watched a movie, ran stairs with Lauren the next day (hurts the lungs), played in the sandbox with my dogs and worked out in my room one day.
Thursday I went to Vail with Nathan and Chris, which was really fun. We got to see Jim and we went to dinner with him and rode the gondoloa up to the top of the mountian and walked around up there. We were really goofy the whole night, I don't know what the deal was. But it was a lot of fun. The next day we went skiing at Copper, I had to ski alone. I know, so sad. Kristin and I kept just missing each other. O, but the day started out really bad because I am an idiot and I forgot my boots at Jim's in Vail, so we ended up driving over Vail pass six different times that day. I felt really bad and Nathan was pretty pissed to say the least. So after skiing we went back to Jim's and later Lyle and Susan came and we went to dinner and then headed back home. We had a nice long talk on the way home, I really miss those guys and it was nice to be with them. And it was refreshing to see Jimmy, he was reassurring as always and he made me feel better about things. It was just nice to be with him and I hope he comes back this summer, because his coaching is what kept me going. Needless to say I miss him tons too.
Saturday was another extravaganza in itself because Jen's boyfriend missed his flight because the stupid shuttle was late and we all ended up going to lunch, which was good. Before that though Lauren and I drove circles around the airport for more than an hour. But man do I know the airport well now! So he got a flight later and we ate at Lauren's, went to Andy's for a while and came back to my house and just drove around and then they left and that my friends, was my spring break. Earlier today Ashley came to say hi/bye so I was really excited I got to see her for a minute.
O yeah, and the movie Robots--no good. My brothers and I went to see it and it wasn't really worth it. O man am I tired. And I get to do homework now! YES! My favorite. One week and then I am going home again for Easter, and I'm excited because the family will all be here so it should be fun. Plus I have a shopping date with my mom. But I will have picutures when I finish my roll, I didn't do a very good job with taking them so it will be a little bit. K well I am going to go do homework but I wish we had another week for break. I don't wanna......o no 6 am practice. What a great way to start the week with! Ugg. Ok I will be back. Adios.
Friday, March 11, 2005
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Eraser?
Oops, this wasn't supposed to be here. But while I am here I just want to say that it is such a small world. I met this kid last night that I used know when I was really little. KARAZZY! Welp read below entry to find out more about what's crackin. Peace.
Open the Door
The lint roller is stuck to the children's Bible. O no. I just would like to say that I have recently discovered somethings that I would like to point out as annoying. 1. dry skin 2. hair. Mostly hair though cause it gets everywhere and it's just sick. I really don't like when you have that one piece stuck to you and you can't find where it is. Also I don't like the little chunk on the end of your lotion bottle. KC and I were talking about this, and even though it's just dried up lotion, it's still pretty sick.
So yesterday was a good day, went to kickboxing, ice cream, lacrosse game, ear pierced and later a party which was just dandy (besides some circumstances that were unavoidable). And today should be a day filled with homework and more homework. And since I have stayed up until four in the morning both nights this weekend I am pretty drained, and so is Lauren. But we have one more week of hell fill of exciting assignments, tests and quizzes galore! I just can't wait. And then I'm going home! Yahoo! And Boulder Saturday night, let's hope it all works out.
Welp I should get to doing all my work, but I will be back no doubt. Buh bye!
Oh, P.S. the reason I titled this "Open the door" was really for no specific reason, I mean I don't even want the door to be opened. I would say I am feeling stuffy in my head and I need to open the door to clear out some mental stagnant air... yeah, we'll just leave it at that.
Now get outta here!
So yesterday was a good day, went to kickboxing, ice cream, lacrosse game, ear pierced and later a party which was just dandy (besides some circumstances that were unavoidable). And today should be a day filled with homework and more homework. And since I have stayed up until four in the morning both nights this weekend I am pretty drained, and so is Lauren. But we have one more week of hell fill of exciting assignments, tests and quizzes galore! I just can't wait. And then I'm going home! Yahoo! And Boulder Saturday night, let's hope it all works out.
Welp I should get to doing all my work, but I will be back no doubt. Buh bye!
Oh, P.S. the reason I titled this "Open the door" was really for no specific reason, I mean I don't even want the door to be opened. I would say I am feeling stuffy in my head and I need to open the door to clear out some mental stagnant air... yeah, we'll just leave it at that.
Now get outta here!
Friday, March 04, 2005
Pushing off
I cannot believe this weather, so so nice. I think that nicer weather makes everyone in a better mood, which in turn, makes me in a better mood. Today was one of those days, what can I say. I had to do the whole class thing which is not my favorite thing to do, and I have been genuinally bored. Maybe that means I'm a boring person, at least that's what my mom says. "If you're bored than you're a boring person," which we all know can not be the case. I am highly festive and fun person.
But a widely known fact about school is that it is very draining. I recovered some statistics from Jessica'shead.com and found out that 95% percent of students ranging from the ages of 13-22 find school draining, and mostly uninteresting. Another fact I got from that same website is that 91.2% of college and 76.3% of high school students find drinking to be a release from the draining activity of the deadful thing we like to call school. And 68.7% of students find it pretty damn boring.
OK! Enough with the statistics from that lovely website. I am learning some very interesting things about dreams and I think I am a pro at dream analysis now. I am also a pro at reciting my ABCs backwards while spinning around on my head (haha HEAD SPIN) at the same time I eat a wheel of cheese while braiding a guy's short hair! HA! Wow that is multi tasking if I ever heard it.
Ok well I am going to run stairs...ouch. So peace out girl scouts!
But a widely known fact about school is that it is very draining. I recovered some statistics from Jessica'shead.com and found out that 95% percent of students ranging from the ages of 13-22 find school draining, and mostly uninteresting. Another fact I got from that same website is that 91.2% of college and 76.3% of high school students find drinking to be a release from the draining activity of the deadful thing we like to call school. And 68.7% of students find it pretty damn boring.
OK! Enough with the statistics from that lovely website. I am learning some very interesting things about dreams and I think I am a pro at dream analysis now. I am also a pro at reciting my ABCs backwards while spinning around on my head (haha HEAD SPIN) at the same time I eat a wheel of cheese while braiding a guy's short hair! HA! Wow that is multi tasking if I ever heard it.
Ok well I am going to run stairs...ouch. So peace out girl scouts!
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Sinking
Well I have a shitload of work I should be doing right now, but I have decided to write on this and listen to Nsync. It makes me feel better. Leave me alone. I want to relive my childhood I decided. I just didn't know how good things were back then. I mean think about it, your mom does everything for you, all you are worried about is if you're going to win freeze tag or what you're going to eat for the next meal. And all your clothes get washed for you (actually I know some people that not a whole lot has changed for them...now that I think about it) and you never have homework, and pretty much everyone is friends with each other. Ahhh the good old days.
Well I have so much work to do it feels like someone is just loading books and papers in my arms to read and work on that I am slowly sinking into the ground. And that is not a good feeling. So here I go, it's the beginning of the end. I can't wait until spring break, even though I won't be doing anything. I wish I was going to Mexico. That would be glorious. I want to go there before I turn 21 because what's the point once you're already 21? There is no point whatsoever.
O! My plant life class got cancelled, and it was so nice. We went and ate and saw Jen and kids from her hall so we all had a big breakfast feast together. Ha, and this kid who lives on her floor asked me if I was a summer girl (I said yes...hoping he meant did I like summer) and he said I looked like one because my hair is wavy and I just look like I am summery...? I thought it was cute--he's nice. Just a funny thought.
Ok well I better go get ready for speech...yes. I love it so much... Welp I will be back. Peace.
Well I have so much work to do it feels like someone is just loading books and papers in my arms to read and work on that I am slowly sinking into the ground. And that is not a good feeling. So here I go, it's the beginning of the end. I can't wait until spring break, even though I won't be doing anything. I wish I was going to Mexico. That would be glorious. I want to go there before I turn 21 because what's the point once you're already 21? There is no point whatsoever.
O! My plant life class got cancelled, and it was so nice. We went and ate and saw Jen and kids from her hall so we all had a big breakfast feast together. Ha, and this kid who lives on her floor asked me if I was a summer girl (I said yes...hoping he meant did I like summer) and he said I looked like one because my hair is wavy and I just look like I am summery...? I thought it was cute--he's nice. Just a funny thought.
Ok well I better go get ready for speech...yes. I love it so much... Welp I will be back. Peace.
Monday, February 28, 2005
Curses
Curse my short term memory and the wind. And while I'm at it, curse poetry and homework. Curse long distances and dorm food, curse people who don't call or write back, curse bad weather and dry skin.
Ok I will stop that. Also I love my new phone, it's so cool. Here is a list of things I wish I could do:
1. Fix any part of a broken car 2. Surf 3. Play poker well 4. Fix a computer 5. Hang glide
6. Do cool tricks with my car (or at least four wheel) 7. Ice and mountian climb 8. Snowboard well 9. Do cool tricks off the board 10. Dance well 11. Snowmoblie and wake board
12. Swim really fast 13. Know how to work a boat and be able to sail 14. waterski
15. Do gymnastic tricks 16. Ice skate 17. Bike well (and do cool tricks) 18. Knit and sew
19. Memorize quickly 20. Do 12 pull ups by myself 21. Cut hair 24. Play video games like a pro 25. Play the guitar 26. Kick open doors!
Alrighty that's it for now, so I will be back in the future. Now I have to study. Arug. Bye.
Ok I will stop that. Also I love my new phone, it's so cool. Here is a list of things I wish I could do:
1. Fix any part of a broken car 2. Surf 3. Play poker well 4. Fix a computer 5. Hang glide
6. Do cool tricks with my car (or at least four wheel) 7. Ice and mountian climb 8. Snowboard well 9. Do cool tricks off the board 10. Dance well 11. Snowmoblie and wake board
12. Swim really fast 13. Know how to work a boat and be able to sail 14. waterski
15. Do gymnastic tricks 16. Ice skate 17. Bike well (and do cool tricks) 18. Knit and sew
19. Memorize quickly 20. Do 12 pull ups by myself 21. Cut hair 24. Play video games like a pro 25. Play the guitar 26. Kick open doors!
Alrighty that's it for now, so I will be back in the future. Now I have to study. Arug. Bye.
In over my head
Well I figured the last blog was enough to last another month, but I couldn't not write in it for another month. So here I am again...avoiding homework. As much as I love learning about lichens and cyanobacteria, I would much rather be doing pretty much anything else (except working at Hobby Lobby and any sort of math). But what I have realized lately is that I am just not that deep of a person. I mean I think I am easy to read and there isn't really that much to me which is probably nothing big. But I wish I would have realized that before I took the lovely class we like to call POETRY, aka I want to die class. I am in way over my head. And there is nothing I can do now but sit back and watch my grade dissapiate right in front of my very eyes. So mom and dad, don't be surprised when I move in with you next year and begin to work at Stein Mart (the horrific store next to Hobby Lobby) because all of the rest of my grades are soon to follow.
Aside from me failing out of school, this weekend was just what I needed. It was nice and relaxing and it was good to see the family again. I also got the added bonuses of hanging out with Lyle and Chris. Always good times. And not to mention the famous shopping with my BZ! I got some shoes and sandles...for the swimming I never do. I did go once last week though, that has to count for something. And I did try running, and all I can say is ouch. I don't know if I already talked about it or not, but yeah. So anyhoot, I got to hang out with my favorite brothers and my wonderful parents, and it was a grand old Dawkins family renunion (especially on the way back from dinner when Grant was in the back of the car moving back and fourth as to shake it while my dad was yelling at him to stop, with Scott humming loudly as he hiccuped and me yelling I had to pee really bad while my mom was trying to tell my dad to slow down--ahh just what I needed to remember where I came from).
K back to the bacteria, but I just wanted to come on and say those few things. And boy do I miss Starbucks...mmmm but I got enough of it this weekend, hopefully it can fuel me through the longest two weeks before spring break. ARUG. Ok bye.
Aside from me failing out of school, this weekend was just what I needed. It was nice and relaxing and it was good to see the family again. I also got the added bonuses of hanging out with Lyle and Chris. Always good times. And not to mention the famous shopping with my BZ! I got some shoes and sandles...for the swimming I never do. I did go once last week though, that has to count for something. And I did try running, and all I can say is ouch. I don't know if I already talked about it or not, but yeah. So anyhoot, I got to hang out with my favorite brothers and my wonderful parents, and it was a grand old Dawkins family renunion (especially on the way back from dinner when Grant was in the back of the car moving back and fourth as to shake it while my dad was yelling at him to stop, with Scott humming loudly as he hiccuped and me yelling I had to pee really bad while my mom was trying to tell my dad to slow down--ahh just what I needed to remember where I came from).
K back to the bacteria, but I just wanted to come on and say those few things. And boy do I miss Starbucks...mmmm but I got enough of it this weekend, hopefully it can fuel me through the longest two weeks before spring break. ARUG. Ok bye.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Friday, February 25, 2005
Blinks in time
The answer is no. NO I do not have a life. That is why this little blog is my only friend. Let me say that yesterday I actually had an intelluctual converstation with the one and only Kristin who is very intuellucutal herself. But it really made me think, I feel like Derek Zoolander and he asks his reflection "Who am I?" and it responds "I don't know". I mean who are we? If you think about it our lives are like nothing in the big scheme of things. Now I'm not saying I am nothing, I'm just saying that in 100 years from now, I don't think anyone on this earth will have any idea who I am. It's sad, but true. I mean it's just the human race in general, we've only been living here a short period of time compared to the dinosaurs. They were just beginning their existance and we feel we have gotten so far in life. Ha.
We have accomplished a lot in our pathetic excuse for existance, it's amazing at how smart humans are. Like how did the first caveman even know how to make fire? Did it happen by accident? All I know is that is amazing. I'm sure they were frightened of it at first too, I mean think about it, not knowing what fire is and seeing it for the first time would scare the shit out of me. And who thought of computers and dvds and cds and how they all work is beyond me. Some people would think that is common sense, but I don't even know how my desk was built. Yeah with wood and stuff but if I were to live by myself for a period of time, I would die within two weeks I would say because I would either starve, be killed by another animal, freeze to death or I might just catch myself on fire (assuming I got a fire going in the first place).
This conversation all started out with a mere apple yesterday at lunch and I just found it weird that I was eating this strange thing that grows off a tree. And then Kristin and I became immediately amazed by everything surrounding us, and I felt like I was stoned. Or at least what I hear it's like to be stoned. How did people know way back in the day what they could eat and not eat? Was it all trial and error. Like one day Bob eats a deadly mushroom and the next week he dies and his friend LaShandra writes it down in her record book "note to self: don't eat red mushroom"?? I mean how did that all come about?
Also in plant life we learned about this specific type of fungi that grows on the tips of wheat. And looking back researchers found out that that was the same stuff that was growing during the Salem Witch trials. So they were harvesting that wheat and eating the posionous fungi. Our teacher told us that it makes people hallucinate and constricts your veins and is extremely painful. Also it causes women who are pregunant to abort their childeren or cause deformities. So all these women were having deformed childeren with extra limbs and stuff and people thought that was the work of the devil. So they burned them. She also said it can be linked back in biblical stories about visions certian figures had. So what if half of the stuff we learned in church wasn't even true, it's all just made up but people thought it was true because they were sick. Who knows... they could have all been eating posions except Jesus!
I don't necessairly believe that, it's just an interesting thought. I just don't see why none of that cool stuff can happen today. This is just the thoughts going on in my head, I don't really know what to make of it. What I do know is that people spend more than half their lives trying to make money and by the time they finally have enough and they want to retire, they're too old to do much of anything. It's sad really how our society is so centered around money and how eveything you want to do always seems to cost so much. I mean life is so short if you look at the big picture, we are all so meaningless in the big existence. Just like blinks in time. So small we can barely even see who existed when.
Those are just some thoughts, but it drives home my philosophy about life. It's too short so live it to it's fullest. And yes that is cliched and repetitive and I've heard it a million times, but I still believe it and I try tell myself just that much more. Our families aren't here forever, and as sad as it is to think about, one day my parents won't be here and I will have to see that happen. I mean the people you grew up with all your life are going to disappear slowly. And getting old is going to be awful. Ha, I think I'm fat now, I should just be happy with myself because it's not going to get a lot better. Especially when I'm old and wrinkley.
So I am going to try to have a better outlook on things. Not saying that I think everything sucks now, just saying there is not much of a reason for me not to be happy. And I am going to value my friends and family that much more, because they are my everything.
Well that entry was somewhat disturbing, but it was thought provoking (for me at least) and just boggles my mind all of the things I am so clueless about (a lot more than most people). But that's all I want to say for now. I won't write again till later this weekend since I am going home to get my new cell phone! YAY! And don't even get me started on how cell phones work... it's amazing. What a world we live in.
O yes, and how does space go on FOREVER? I mean is there a limit to how far the universe can go for? And Kristin informed me that the earth is 1/10000 of the sun! And our continent is smaller than that and so is our country and then you zoom into tiny Colorado and my town and then me. I am just a spec. And then the bacteria and an ATOM. Wow. What if we are just inside of something bigger? What if our universe is someone else's pebble and we are within their universe as well? And I just don't get how the world is round. I mean I do in a sense, but it's hard to see when you are just swimming in the ocean. It seems like there is an ending when the sky hits the sea. Again, what a world we live in.
Ok time for class. My head hurts, I don't want to think anymore. taha BYE.
We have accomplished a lot in our pathetic excuse for existance, it's amazing at how smart humans are. Like how did the first caveman even know how to make fire? Did it happen by accident? All I know is that is amazing. I'm sure they were frightened of it at first too, I mean think about it, not knowing what fire is and seeing it for the first time would scare the shit out of me. And who thought of computers and dvds and cds and how they all work is beyond me. Some people would think that is common sense, but I don't even know how my desk was built. Yeah with wood and stuff but if I were to live by myself for a period of time, I would die within two weeks I would say because I would either starve, be killed by another animal, freeze to death or I might just catch myself on fire (assuming I got a fire going in the first place).
This conversation all started out with a mere apple yesterday at lunch and I just found it weird that I was eating this strange thing that grows off a tree. And then Kristin and I became immediately amazed by everything surrounding us, and I felt like I was stoned. Or at least what I hear it's like to be stoned. How did people know way back in the day what they could eat and not eat? Was it all trial and error. Like one day Bob eats a deadly mushroom and the next week he dies and his friend LaShandra writes it down in her record book "note to self: don't eat red mushroom"?? I mean how did that all come about?
Also in plant life we learned about this specific type of fungi that grows on the tips of wheat. And looking back researchers found out that that was the same stuff that was growing during the Salem Witch trials. So they were harvesting that wheat and eating the posionous fungi. Our teacher told us that it makes people hallucinate and constricts your veins and is extremely painful. Also it causes women who are pregunant to abort their childeren or cause deformities. So all these women were having deformed childeren with extra limbs and stuff and people thought that was the work of the devil. So they burned them. She also said it can be linked back in biblical stories about visions certian figures had. So what if half of the stuff we learned in church wasn't even true, it's all just made up but people thought it was true because they were sick. Who knows... they could have all been eating posions except Jesus!
I don't necessairly believe that, it's just an interesting thought. I just don't see why none of that cool stuff can happen today. This is just the thoughts going on in my head, I don't really know what to make of it. What I do know is that people spend more than half their lives trying to make money and by the time they finally have enough and they want to retire, they're too old to do much of anything. It's sad really how our society is so centered around money and how eveything you want to do always seems to cost so much. I mean life is so short if you look at the big picture, we are all so meaningless in the big existence. Just like blinks in time. So small we can barely even see who existed when.
Those are just some thoughts, but it drives home my philosophy about life. It's too short so live it to it's fullest. And yes that is cliched and repetitive and I've heard it a million times, but I still believe it and I try tell myself just that much more. Our families aren't here forever, and as sad as it is to think about, one day my parents won't be here and I will have to see that happen. I mean the people you grew up with all your life are going to disappear slowly. And getting old is going to be awful. Ha, I think I'm fat now, I should just be happy with myself because it's not going to get a lot better. Especially when I'm old and wrinkley.
So I am going to try to have a better outlook on things. Not saying that I think everything sucks now, just saying there is not much of a reason for me not to be happy. And I am going to value my friends and family that much more, because they are my everything.
Well that entry was somewhat disturbing, but it was thought provoking (for me at least) and just boggles my mind all of the things I am so clueless about (a lot more than most people). But that's all I want to say for now. I won't write again till later this weekend since I am going home to get my new cell phone! YAY! And don't even get me started on how cell phones work... it's amazing. What a world we live in.
O yes, and how does space go on FOREVER? I mean is there a limit to how far the universe can go for? And Kristin informed me that the earth is 1/10000 of the sun! And our continent is smaller than that and so is our country and then you zoom into tiny Colorado and my town and then me. I am just a spec. And then the bacteria and an ATOM. Wow. What if we are just inside of something bigger? What if our universe is someone else's pebble and we are within their universe as well? And I just don't get how the world is round. I mean I do in a sense, but it's hard to see when you are just swimming in the ocean. It seems like there is an ending when the sky hits the sea. Again, what a world we live in.
Ok time for class. My head hurts, I don't want to think anymore. taha BYE.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
BiTs aNd PieCeS
Hey hey. Today is a day that will go down in history. I did some homework before it got dark!! I know it's a lot to handle, but it's true. There are a few thoughts that I would like to have in the record books. First of all I am sore. Yes, that's so sad because we lifted normal weights yesterday but it's because we haven't lifted in a while. But we are going to run (if I can learn how) and then go in the hot tub, no swimming tonight. Secondly I must say that country music makes me in a good mood, even though I don't like all of it, I do like most of it. I like a lot of different types of music. ANYDANGWAY, I would like to either a) go skiing/snowboarding or b) go to the beach. One of those would be great. OK story time!
Ahem, today a girl we shall call her... Katinka, she was at lunch with her friends. She's not the brightest girl you will have ever met because Katinka has done some pretty dumb things in her life, things like turn into of a 300 pound man's car, get lost when she was five minutes from her house, ate shit right next to a sign that read "Caution wet steps", asked someone how he takes pictures of two people when there is just two people, bitten into a tomato and had the juice squirt out onto a random stranger in front of her... various things like that, and she tends to get lost and wander away often. So back to the story, she was trying to throw a chunk of food on her friend's plate, but over estimated her distance and thew it into the meal of another fellow student. Katinka was embarassed but that's what she gets for being stupid. HA HA dumb Katinka.
Wasn't that the best story you ever heard? I bet so. Best damn story I ever told. Now I must go partake in some birthday festivities across the hall.
That was the big bash of '05!! Sweetness. We made characters out of balloons, what could be better than that. GOOD NEWS! I am getting a new cellular device this weekend when I go home. YESSS finally. How do cell phones even work? I mean I know some of how they work, but who thought of a phone and phone lines and all that stuff. I will tell you who. Alexander Graham Bell that's who. Pure genius. Another thing Maroon 5 is coming to town April 26th, Pepsi Center at 7! I have to get tickets...humm who out of my three friends would want to come? Don't all jump at once on this one. Well before I go I want to give a shout out to the things you use everyday, but you don't think about them (and the brand names that made them):
Thanks to Wal-Mart for providing me with socks that keeping my feet warm
Thanks to Just Basic for making hair ties without metal parts that keep my mop out of my face
Thanks Equate for making nutrient enriched lotion that keeps my skin smooth
Thank you Blistex for making chapstick that keeps my lips kissable
I wanna thank Athletic Works for making lifting gloves so I don't get blisters. And even though people may think I am swaying the opposite way--I DONT CARE THEY HELP ME!
I want to give a shout out to Swingline for making my stapler that I use on a daily basis.
And last but not least Scotch for providing me with my much needed tape to hang up pictures. And the duct tape company because I use that with everything, Duct tape you are my answer to everything!
So thank you everyone! I am going to go do my homewok, but I will be back! Peace and hair grease.
Ahem, today a girl we shall call her... Katinka, she was at lunch with her friends. She's not the brightest girl you will have ever met because Katinka has done some pretty dumb things in her life, things like turn into of a 300 pound man's car, get lost when she was five minutes from her house, ate shit right next to a sign that read "Caution wet steps", asked someone how he takes pictures of two people when there is just two people, bitten into a tomato and had the juice squirt out onto a random stranger in front of her... various things like that, and she tends to get lost and wander away often. So back to the story, she was trying to throw a chunk of food on her friend's plate, but over estimated her distance and thew it into the meal of another fellow student. Katinka was embarassed but that's what she gets for being stupid. HA HA dumb Katinka.
Wasn't that the best story you ever heard? I bet so. Best damn story I ever told. Now I must go partake in some birthday festivities across the hall.
That was the big bash of '05!! Sweetness. We made characters out of balloons, what could be better than that. GOOD NEWS! I am getting a new cellular device this weekend when I go home. YESSS finally. How do cell phones even work? I mean I know some of how they work, but who thought of a phone and phone lines and all that stuff. I will tell you who. Alexander Graham Bell that's who. Pure genius. Another thing Maroon 5 is coming to town April 26th, Pepsi Center at 7! I have to get tickets...humm who out of my three friends would want to come? Don't all jump at once on this one. Well before I go I want to give a shout out to the things you use everyday, but you don't think about them (and the brand names that made them):
Thanks to Wal-Mart for providing me with socks that keeping my feet warm
Thanks to Just Basic for making hair ties without metal parts that keep my mop out of my face
Thanks Equate for making nutrient enriched lotion that keeps my skin smooth
Thank you Blistex for making chapstick that keeps my lips kissable
I wanna thank Athletic Works for making lifting gloves so I don't get blisters. And even though people may think I am swaying the opposite way--I DONT CARE THEY HELP ME!
I want to give a shout out to Swingline for making my stapler that I use on a daily basis.
And last but not least Scotch for providing me with my much needed tape to hang up pictures. And the duct tape company because I use that with everything, Duct tape you are my answer to everything!
So thank you everyone! I am going to go do my homewok, but I will be back! Peace and hair grease.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Monday, February 21, 2005
Ebony
Ok, well I really should be going to bed. Because it's late and I have to wake up early. But I just wanted to come on and say a few things. First of all I titled this peice "Ebony" because it's really dark in this room and I just learned that word this weekend. What a great word. Secondly, I just finished writing these setting things for creative writing and I think I did mine wrong. Oh well I am doing really bad in school right now. But we won't talk about that.
On the other hand I have good news. I have somewhat recovered my imagination. I didn't get all of it back, but it's coming back to me slowly. I just needed a little inspiration and a little bit of love and WHAM it's gonna all hit me. No, not really. The point here is that I am feeling a little better upstairs but I still have some cobwebs to clean out. So my point being I am writing my speech about dreams (Ashley actually helped me think of that) and my story is about all this interesting stuff. Even though Lauren did mention that it was kinda like the Disney movie "Johnny Sunami"...yeah...
Also, I would just like to say a few of my favorite words: Plethora, epiphony, tubular, annialate, DOMINATE, luscious, enchanted, spectacular... those are just a few. I just felt like saying that. Don't make fun of me. And here kids is the defination of the day Talisman is a trinket, object or charm. Another thing I would like to say is Hitch was pretty funny, and I had a good weekend. But I didn't get anything done. But if you have nothing else to do you can:
A. Have a dance party with your friends to old NSYNC music
B. Make up creepy voices to songs (especially interesting parts of songs)
C. Listen to your roommate and the kid next door get in a "fight"
D. Lint roll your floor
E. Watch the All-Star dunk contest.
So there are some things you can do if there is absoutely nothing else to do. In which case there usually isn't and then those things turn out to be a lot of fun. But I really did have fun dancing to Nsync. And making up the voices. That was a good night. Or you can always make up characters with your roommate... you have the dorks with the glasses and high pants--Chad and Peter, you have your deep voiced man, Dan, you have your Asian folk...you get the point. But it's always good for some laughs.
Well I'm going to go to bed. This was pretty unproductive as usual, but otherwise I would just be sleeping... and how fun is that. Especially when you have weird dreams about random people. Ok well goodnight!
On the other hand I have good news. I have somewhat recovered my imagination. I didn't get all of it back, but it's coming back to me slowly. I just needed a little inspiration and a little bit of love and WHAM it's gonna all hit me. No, not really. The point here is that I am feeling a little better upstairs but I still have some cobwebs to clean out. So my point being I am writing my speech about dreams (Ashley actually helped me think of that) and my story is about all this interesting stuff. Even though Lauren did mention that it was kinda like the Disney movie "Johnny Sunami"...yeah...
Also, I would just like to say a few of my favorite words: Plethora, epiphony, tubular, annialate, DOMINATE, luscious, enchanted, spectacular... those are just a few. I just felt like saying that. Don't make fun of me. And here kids is the defination of the day Talisman is a trinket, object or charm. Another thing I would like to say is Hitch was pretty funny, and I had a good weekend. But I didn't get anything done. But if you have nothing else to do you can:
A. Have a dance party with your friends to old NSYNC music
B. Make up creepy voices to songs (especially interesting parts of songs)
C. Listen to your roommate and the kid next door get in a "fight"
D. Lint roll your floor
E. Watch the All-Star dunk contest.
So there are some things you can do if there is absoutely nothing else to do. In which case there usually isn't and then those things turn out to be a lot of fun. But I really did have fun dancing to Nsync. And making up the voices. That was a good night. Or you can always make up characters with your roommate... you have the dorks with the glasses and high pants--Chad and Peter, you have your deep voiced man, Dan, you have your Asian folk...you get the point. But it's always good for some laughs.
Well I'm going to go to bed. This was pretty unproductive as usual, but otherwise I would just be sleeping... and how fun is that. Especially when you have weird dreams about random people. Ok well goodnight!
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