Lauren on the last day of school!
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Take forever!
Yes I am back, yet sadly there are no pictures to show. Well actually there are, but I can't scan them in because my printer isn't hooked up. So I need to do that. Hook up my printer that is. I wish I could hook up something else.... Ok I am in a weird mood, I probably shouldn't be writing in here, I should go to bed like most normal people. But I am not normal. SO I DON'T WANNA GO TO BED OK?! Ok now that's settled I have a few things I would like to say.
First of all swimming is going, well, swimmingly. It's just fine, I think that things are going to be ok. It was refreshing to swim for Jim again. Secondly, work starts soon and I am head guard! Whohoo! That's the highlight of my life. That I am head guard at the pool my dad manages. So cool, I know. Thirdly, I have no life so I spend a lot of it sleeping. I guess that's good for now considering I will have to do something else when that something else starts. O! And I cleaned my room today and talked on the phone with just about everyone I know. And Creek's graduation is tomorrow, but I don't think I will go. Whatever, I am rambling...Anydangway, I like wireless internet. And cheese. Mmmm cheese cubes. But sometimes I eat too much and my stomach hurts.
Ok, so I have a interesting story. I woke up in a closet the other day.
The end.
Ok, I will tell it in it's entirity.
Went to Matt's for a good time, and it seems like pretty much everyone had a little too good of a time. I won't name names but one person wandered around the neighborhood until her mom had to come drive her home, another broke into someone's house and passed out on their couch. Needless to say they got an MIP. Someone else got sick, and some dumb girl woke up in a closet. Wow. But who says you can't learn something new everytime you go out. Here are some things I learned:
1. Slimfast proves to be a good chaser
2. Teaching people how to do the worm is a little more difficult than it seems
3. Charging your cellular phone before going out is always a good idea, because then you don't look like as much of a loser sitting by all the booze...by yourself.
4. Sleeping in closets is much better than the grass. I'm glad I figured that one out.
5. It's a little awkard when the mom of the person's house you were at makes you hashbrowns in the morning...when everyone is still feeling the effects of the night before.
6. Knocking on people's doors to find someone at nine in the morning is not as fun as it sounds, because I know, it does sound fun. But don't let it trick you.
7. I don't think that anyone would really fall for the hitch hiking to inverness plan.
So that was the party to kick off the summer I guess. It will probably be the first and last, but it was memorable to say the least.
So I had all of these things I wanted to talk about and now I'm getting sleepy. No worries though, I will say it all.
So the cousins came to visit and it was their last visit ever, because they are MOVING here in a month. So that should be really good. We had a good time. We hung out, watched movies, ate, hung out, ate more...that's the basics. So they left on Sunday, and since then I have just been sitting around.
Kristin came over yesterday and we had a lot of fun. I don't really know what we did for eight hours... but it was nice to see her. Later that night we had a very awkard encounter, but it was way to awkard to put into words. It was pretty much cricket cricket awkard, maybe even worse. If it can get worse. That's the only way I can describe it.
After swimming today I went to Lauren's and lifted and we just hung out for a while. It's hard when you live with someone for a year and then aren't with them all the time. Well when you like them I guess. And I happen to like my buddy Lauren, and I can't see her every waking minute. And it's really tough, it breaks my heart. Breaks it I tell you. Aww BOO. Is what I say to that. Jen does it much better though.
Speaking of Jen I talked to her today. She's good. I miss her. And I like her dog even though I have never met him. He seems like a strapping young dog.
My buddy Katie on the other hand I have not talked to, only read that her dog passed away. Man, that's gotta be hard. I'm so sorry Katie.
My dogs are really good incase there was any question or wandering going on. Just to clear things up. They smell, but I like them. Good thing. My rabbit is good too. He's old, and he looks cute when he drinks his water but creepy when he yawns. O! Good news, I think that I know someone in my math class that starts next week! That will be a relief!
Speaking of yawning I am tired and delirous. However you spell. And I have only one thing to say, Chris, I can't make out with you today. HA. Ok I don't know what's going on. Who am I? I DON'T KNOW. So yeah when I got home from Lauren's today, who else but TODD AND ALEX were over. So we had an absoutely amazing time watching ESPN. They probably came to see my brothers, but I like to think they still want to be friends with me. Even though I am not as funny, or exciting. They can at least be friends with me because I am good looking right? Riiiight.
H'okay. So you have this world, it is a sweet world you might say. Nice and round... That is just a little clip of the End of the World video on ebaumsworld.com, but I won't give the rest of it away. This has to be the longest post I have ever written, and it is by far the most random and boring. So with that being said I am going to go to bed. HA! I rhyme. I had this dream last night that I got the worst grade on my poetry final paper. The worst in the whole class, and my teacher was worried about my intelligence. There were some pretty messed up kids in that class so to say I did the worst is really depressing. And sadly it's all probably true. It's probably no dream at all! AHH!
K, I am really going to bed now. I'm sure I will be back soon, my life is really eventful and exciting as well at thrilling and amazing. But inbetween sky diving with the American Idol star and deep sea fishing with Brad Pitt and Johnny Damon (they are friends you know), I will find time to write in here. I always manage to find time.
First of all swimming is going, well, swimmingly. It's just fine, I think that things are going to be ok. It was refreshing to swim for Jim again. Secondly, work starts soon and I am head guard! Whohoo! That's the highlight of my life. That I am head guard at the pool my dad manages. So cool, I know. Thirdly, I have no life so I spend a lot of it sleeping. I guess that's good for now considering I will have to do something else when that something else starts. O! And I cleaned my room today and talked on the phone with just about everyone I know. And Creek's graduation is tomorrow, but I don't think I will go. Whatever, I am rambling...Anydangway, I like wireless internet. And cheese. Mmmm cheese cubes. But sometimes I eat too much and my stomach hurts.
Ok, so I have a interesting story. I woke up in a closet the other day.
The end.
Ok, I will tell it in it's entirity.
Went to Matt's for a good time, and it seems like pretty much everyone had a little too good of a time. I won't name names but one person wandered around the neighborhood until her mom had to come drive her home, another broke into someone's house and passed out on their couch. Needless to say they got an MIP. Someone else got sick, and some dumb girl woke up in a closet. Wow. But who says you can't learn something new everytime you go out. Here are some things I learned:
1. Slimfast proves to be a good chaser
2. Teaching people how to do the worm is a little more difficult than it seems
3. Charging your cellular phone before going out is always a good idea, because then you don't look like as much of a loser sitting by all the booze...by yourself.
4. Sleeping in closets is much better than the grass. I'm glad I figured that one out.
5. It's a little awkard when the mom of the person's house you were at makes you hashbrowns in the morning...when everyone is still feeling the effects of the night before.
6. Knocking on people's doors to find someone at nine in the morning is not as fun as it sounds, because I know, it does sound fun. But don't let it trick you.
7. I don't think that anyone would really fall for the hitch hiking to inverness plan.
So that was the party to kick off the summer I guess. It will probably be the first and last, but it was memorable to say the least.
So I had all of these things I wanted to talk about and now I'm getting sleepy. No worries though, I will say it all.
So the cousins came to visit and it was their last visit ever, because they are MOVING here in a month. So that should be really good. We had a good time. We hung out, watched movies, ate, hung out, ate more...that's the basics. So they left on Sunday, and since then I have just been sitting around.
Kristin came over yesterday and we had a lot of fun. I don't really know what we did for eight hours... but it was nice to see her. Later that night we had a very awkard encounter, but it was way to awkard to put into words. It was pretty much cricket cricket awkard, maybe even worse. If it can get worse. That's the only way I can describe it.
After swimming today I went to Lauren's and lifted and we just hung out for a while. It's hard when you live with someone for a year and then aren't with them all the time. Well when you like them I guess. And I happen to like my buddy Lauren, and I can't see her every waking minute. And it's really tough, it breaks my heart. Breaks it I tell you. Aww BOO. Is what I say to that. Jen does it much better though.
Speaking of Jen I talked to her today. She's good. I miss her. And I like her dog even though I have never met him. He seems like a strapping young dog.
My buddy Katie on the other hand I have not talked to, only read that her dog passed away. Man, that's gotta be hard. I'm so sorry Katie.
My dogs are really good incase there was any question or wandering going on. Just to clear things up. They smell, but I like them. Good thing. My rabbit is good too. He's old, and he looks cute when he drinks his water but creepy when he yawns. O! Good news, I think that I know someone in my math class that starts next week! That will be a relief!
Speaking of yawning I am tired and delirous. However you spell. And I have only one thing to say, Chris, I can't make out with you today. HA. Ok I don't know what's going on. Who am I? I DON'T KNOW. So yeah when I got home from Lauren's today, who else but TODD AND ALEX were over. So we had an absoutely amazing time watching ESPN. They probably came to see my brothers, but I like to think they still want to be friends with me. Even though I am not as funny, or exciting. They can at least be friends with me because I am good looking right? Riiiight.
H'okay. So you have this world, it is a sweet world you might say. Nice and round... That is just a little clip of the End of the World video on ebaumsworld.com, but I won't give the rest of it away. This has to be the longest post I have ever written, and it is by far the most random and boring. So with that being said I am going to go to bed. HA! I rhyme. I had this dream last night that I got the worst grade on my poetry final paper. The worst in the whole class, and my teacher was worried about my intelligence. There were some pretty messed up kids in that class so to say I did the worst is really depressing. And sadly it's all probably true. It's probably no dream at all! AHH!
K, I am really going to bed now. I'm sure I will be back soon, my life is really eventful and exciting as well at thrilling and amazing. But inbetween sky diving with the American Idol star and deep sea fishing with Brad Pitt and Johnny Damon (they are friends you know), I will find time to write in here. I always manage to find time.
Monday, May 23, 2005
Torn
I am back once again to start off another week of mystery and adventure. I wish, it's just another day in the life of Jessica. Not too eventful, but I can say that I am not happy with a current situation going on right now. I feel like I am being split down the middle, being torn and I have no idea what to do.
Who would have thought swimming would take such a tole on not only my mind but my soul. I know it sounds corney and dumb, but it is true in a sense. I mean I have been swimming for as long as I can remember and I never rememeber truly loving it until the summer I started with Aquawolves. I mean, I didn't love all of the swimming, but I looked forward to going to practice and swimming with my best friends, swimming with the coach who changed my outlook on the sport. And now it's all coming to an end. I mean, yeah it came to an end when we all went to school, but now it's just more definate, more real to me. Since Jim retired a lot of things have been going through my head, and I don't think I have ever thought that hard about swimming before. I don't necessairly think that you should think too hard about something like that. It should just come and I should just go. Just swim fast has always been my thinking in the past.
I never would have thought Jim coming back would be so bittersweet. It's like a blessing, but a blessing in disguise and not many people are seeing beind the mask, if you will. In a lot of ways I agree with people who are going other places, but then there are times where I just want to shake them and tell them they will never swim with someone like Jim ever again, and they should take advantage of the time he has decided to be here for. But then again most people aren't me, they don't think like me, or train like me, so I guess I will just watch them slip away quietly from the best thing swimming ever had.
I can't control everyone, and it wouldn't be any good even if I could. This is just a part of life and I have noticed the hardest part of life I have had to experience so far; moving on. I hate it more than anything, and I hate the fact that I look back on the way things used to be so much. It definately makes things harder, because there are times where I wish I was numb to change, then it wouldn't hurt so much. There are times where having having a heart of coal would be easier too. Too bad mine is far from it. I have tried teaching myself to look at things from a different perspective, but no matter what, it always comes back to how I feel and, esentially, what is making me smile, what is truly making me happy.
So when thinking about it, it's not hard to know what truly makes me happy; my friends, my family and how I live life. But now it seems all of these things are being split up, and I am holding on to each of them with my both arms, I am feeling like I am going to be ripped in half. Eventually I am going to have to let go of something before it hurts too much more. I have already watched some of my friends go, but I still feel like I have some of them with me, even if it is just their shoelace. Eventually everyone has to decide what they want in life and although it's never goodbye forever, it's almost just as hard. I feel like no matter where I turn, I will be turning my back on someone that cares for me and someone that I care for just as much.
So my situation is probably not that big of a deal from the big picture, but it is my life and this is a huge chunk of it. Thinking about swimming this much is painful just as thinking too much about anything is, but that's not the worst of it, the worst is feeling this much about the people and the sport. The feeling part is what definately hurts the most. And it's probably going to take a long time to heal.
So with all of that said I am going to practice, just a one day trail of the other team, I just wish it wouldn't be this hard. I wish the pain would all go away.
Who would have thought swimming would take such a tole on not only my mind but my soul. I know it sounds corney and dumb, but it is true in a sense. I mean I have been swimming for as long as I can remember and I never rememeber truly loving it until the summer I started with Aquawolves. I mean, I didn't love all of the swimming, but I looked forward to going to practice and swimming with my best friends, swimming with the coach who changed my outlook on the sport. And now it's all coming to an end. I mean, yeah it came to an end when we all went to school, but now it's just more definate, more real to me. Since Jim retired a lot of things have been going through my head, and I don't think I have ever thought that hard about swimming before. I don't necessairly think that you should think too hard about something like that. It should just come and I should just go. Just swim fast has always been my thinking in the past.
I never would have thought Jim coming back would be so bittersweet. It's like a blessing, but a blessing in disguise and not many people are seeing beind the mask, if you will. In a lot of ways I agree with people who are going other places, but then there are times where I just want to shake them and tell them they will never swim with someone like Jim ever again, and they should take advantage of the time he has decided to be here for. But then again most people aren't me, they don't think like me, or train like me, so I guess I will just watch them slip away quietly from the best thing swimming ever had.
I can't control everyone, and it wouldn't be any good even if I could. This is just a part of life and I have noticed the hardest part of life I have had to experience so far; moving on. I hate it more than anything, and I hate the fact that I look back on the way things used to be so much. It definately makes things harder, because there are times where I wish I was numb to change, then it wouldn't hurt so much. There are times where having having a heart of coal would be easier too. Too bad mine is far from it. I have tried teaching myself to look at things from a different perspective, but no matter what, it always comes back to how I feel and, esentially, what is making me smile, what is truly making me happy.
So when thinking about it, it's not hard to know what truly makes me happy; my friends, my family and how I live life. But now it seems all of these things are being split up, and I am holding on to each of them with my both arms, I am feeling like I am going to be ripped in half. Eventually I am going to have to let go of something before it hurts too much more. I have already watched some of my friends go, but I still feel like I have some of them with me, even if it is just their shoelace. Eventually everyone has to decide what they want in life and although it's never goodbye forever, it's almost just as hard. I feel like no matter where I turn, I will be turning my back on someone that cares for me and someone that I care for just as much.
So my situation is probably not that big of a deal from the big picture, but it is my life and this is a huge chunk of it. Thinking about swimming this much is painful just as thinking too much about anything is, but that's not the worst of it, the worst is feeling this much about the people and the sport. The feeling part is what definately hurts the most. And it's probably going to take a long time to heal.
So with all of that said I am going to practice, just a one day trail of the other team, I just wish it wouldn't be this hard. I wish the pain would all go away.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Take your mark, get set...
Well I haven't completed all of my summer long goals yet, but here it what I have done:
1. Learned how to make sushi. And failed miserably at it.
2. Watched the worst horror movie I have ever seen
3. Gone to my favorite beverage store a few times (no, not the liquor store, Starbucks)
4. Went to swim practice
5. Sat around the house (sleeping until noon everyday)
6. Went to lunch
7. Thought about doing things but never acutally doing them
8. Got sunburnt (again)
So there is the beginning of my summer list. Very promising. I have to start working almost everyday as well as swimming and doing my dryland workout so I am relaxing while I can.
Updates on the goings on in my life:
-Cousins come in town tonight
-Getting crunk with them
-Not really getting crunk, although that would be funny
-CPR update class Sunday
-Getting crunk with the CPR class
-Not really, but that would be even more funny, especially considering my dad would be there
-Getting crunk sometime this summer
-Let's hope so
Well I have to get ready for glorious swim practice so I can make my way to the Olympics soon. I hope the summer becomes more eventful, but until then I will be writing in here way too much. Ah the rich and fruitful life I lead. So until something better happens, be back here tomorrow.
1. Learned how to make sushi. And failed miserably at it.
2. Watched the worst horror movie I have ever seen
3. Gone to my favorite beverage store a few times (no, not the liquor store, Starbucks)
4. Went to swim practice
5. Sat around the house (sleeping until noon everyday)
6. Went to lunch
7. Thought about doing things but never acutally doing them
8. Got sunburnt (again)
So there is the beginning of my summer list. Very promising. I have to start working almost everyday as well as swimming and doing my dryland workout so I am relaxing while I can.
Updates on the goings on in my life:
-Cousins come in town tonight
-Getting crunk with them
-Not really getting crunk, although that would be funny
-CPR update class Sunday
-Getting crunk with the CPR class
-Not really, but that would be even more funny, especially considering my dad would be there
-Getting crunk sometime this summer
-Let's hope so
Well I have to get ready for glorious swim practice so I can make my way to the Olympics soon. I hope the summer becomes more eventful, but until then I will be writing in here way too much. Ah the rich and fruitful life I lead. So until something better happens, be back here tomorrow.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
And we're off
Well I was going to put some pictures to provide for some asetic (however you spell) pleasure. Because the all that writing is a little overwhelming at first. But I have no new pictures...there will be some good ones to come though.
So yeah I am home now and I just finished unpacking everything, I would say two days isn't half bad. It gets tiring, let me tell ya. But I am glad I can now walk through my room. So since I have been home here are some things I have done:
1. Hung out with friends I haven't seen in a while
2. Worked both days
3. Got sunburnt
4. Unpacked
Well that's about all I can think of. But here are some things that I want to accomplish in the next few days:
1. Enter into an extremely competitive baking contest
2. Join the Morman church
3. Film my own fishing video
4. Disect a small bug
So I have my work cut out for me. I better get to doing that. But until then I would like to say being home is bittersweet. Here are the reasons it is sweet:
-Being my family
-Not having school
-Working at the pool
-Seeing my friends
Here are the reasons it's bitter:
-Curfew
-Being nagged every ten minutes
-Getting yelled at
-Not having my car I waited so long to drive
-Did I mention CURFEW?!
So yeah, my pains are obvious. No worries though, I am adapting quite well, surprisingly. I don't have too much else going on, my cousins are coming in later this week from Canada, and I probably have something that is supposed to be done I am just spacing it. My math class starts in a couple of weeks. I can't wait for that one, I mean who doesn't love math in the summer time? I don't know what I would do without it.
Well I am going to go get ready for another night with my one of my long lost friends! Of course I will be back.
So yeah I am home now and I just finished unpacking everything, I would say two days isn't half bad. It gets tiring, let me tell ya. But I am glad I can now walk through my room. So since I have been home here are some things I have done:
1. Hung out with friends I haven't seen in a while
2. Worked both days
3. Got sunburnt
4. Unpacked
Well that's about all I can think of. But here are some things that I want to accomplish in the next few days:
1. Enter into an extremely competitive baking contest
2. Join the Morman church
3. Film my own fishing video
4. Disect a small bug
So I have my work cut out for me. I better get to doing that. But until then I would like to say being home is bittersweet. Here are the reasons it is sweet:
-Being my family
-Not having school
-Working at the pool
-Seeing my friends
Here are the reasons it's bitter:
-Curfew
-Being nagged every ten minutes
-Getting yelled at
-Not having my car I waited so long to drive
-Did I mention CURFEW?!
So yeah, my pains are obvious. No worries though, I am adapting quite well, surprisingly. I don't have too much else going on, my cousins are coming in later this week from Canada, and I probably have something that is supposed to be done I am just spacing it. My math class starts in a couple of weeks. I can't wait for that one, I mean who doesn't love math in the summer time? I don't know what I would do without it.
Well I am going to go get ready for another night with my one of my long lost friends! Of course I will be back.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Refelctions
I can't beleive it's over. That went by really fast. Sometimes I think it's for the better, other times I wish I could have slowed time, but I think in the end it was just right. I think back to the beginning of the year and it felt like it was so long ago, going to football games, tailgating, that first couple weekends where we walked everywhere just looing for any party we could find. I think about how I felt like it might be hard to keep in touch with a lot of my friends only to find out that it wasn't that hard at all and I realized that if you are good enough friends with someone it is easy to keep in touch. Thinking about that the other night, I was very thankful for all of my friends, new and old, I don't know what I would do without them. Although it did go fast, even last semester seemed like a long time ago, but then again I can remember moving in like it was yesterday. I was so nervous to see what things would be like with my roommate, school and meeting people. And I do have to say, that feeling carried almost all the way through the semester. Thankfully I had a wonderful roommate to keep me sane, that helped me more than she will ever know. And once I started to get the whole school thing down, I was feeling better, but man is it hard at first to meet people. I mean, yeah just meeting someone isn't hard, but acutally keeping in touch and growing close to them is something that I would have never expected to be as hard as it was this year. I did make some really good friends, some of the best I will ever have in my life, but I only made a few really special ones. I think this is a good place to put the "it's quality, not quantity" saying in because I full heartedly beleive that to be true. I would rather have a small group of people that I am super close with rather than just a bunch of people who I barley know. I'm rambling now, too many thoughts going on in my head.
I would just like to say thank you to all of you who have made my freshman year so worthwhile, so fun, so memorable, so meaningful. No matter if you go here or not, you know who you are and I could not be more grateful for all the friends I have.
The other night we were (once again) talking about all of the things we would miss and I found myself looking back on memories as I shared them with Ashley and Lauren for more than an hour. They would just keep popping up into my head, and I realized that these truly are the best years of my life. I remember when my mom told me that about highschool and I just shook my head as I told her I had too much homework. And by the time I realized how fun it all was, it was already too late. So I am glad I am taking this into account now, and how I should be so thankful for the life that I live.
Ahh, what a year what a year. I am also very pleased with all of the people who came up to visit me. That was always a good time, and once again proves my friends are the best! I am going to miss the crazy nights were I barely remember anything, as well as the laid back nights were we just hung out in this great dorm room of ours and talked about anything and everything. I would have never expected the year to turn out like it did, it's funny how little things work themselves out like that.
Ok! Enough on my sweet ass school experience. Tomorrow is the big move out day and it still hasn't hit me. Except last night when I got a little upset. But we shall not talk about that. It was a good time, we decided to party it up to celebrate for no more school. I sometimes celebrate a little too hard, but it was fun and I found out that I am not too shabby at the duck hunt game! Tonight Red Robin with Katie and her 'rents and then we shall see where the night takes us!! Last night in FoCo, so I better enjoy every minute of it.
I am going to go cry now. Just kidding, but I am going to get ready I will be back in the near future cause I feel like making a list... eventually. But I have a quick question before I leave, why when you get the hiccups do you get them more than once in a day? I do not know, boggles my mind.
I would just like to say thank you to all of you who have made my freshman year so worthwhile, so fun, so memorable, so meaningful. No matter if you go here or not, you know who you are and I could not be more grateful for all the friends I have.
The other night we were (once again) talking about all of the things we would miss and I found myself looking back on memories as I shared them with Ashley and Lauren for more than an hour. They would just keep popping up into my head, and I realized that these truly are the best years of my life. I remember when my mom told me that about highschool and I just shook my head as I told her I had too much homework. And by the time I realized how fun it all was, it was already too late. So I am glad I am taking this into account now, and how I should be so thankful for the life that I live.
Ahh, what a year what a year. I am also very pleased with all of the people who came up to visit me. That was always a good time, and once again proves my friends are the best! I am going to miss the crazy nights were I barely remember anything, as well as the laid back nights were we just hung out in this great dorm room of ours and talked about anything and everything. I would have never expected the year to turn out like it did, it's funny how little things work themselves out like that.
Ok! Enough on my sweet ass school experience. Tomorrow is the big move out day and it still hasn't hit me. Except last night when I got a little upset. But we shall not talk about that. It was a good time, we decided to party it up to celebrate for no more school. I sometimes celebrate a little too hard, but it was fun and I found out that I am not too shabby at the duck hunt game! Tonight Red Robin with Katie and her 'rents and then we shall see where the night takes us!! Last night in FoCo, so I better enjoy every minute of it.
I am going to go cry now. Just kidding, but I am going to get ready I will be back in the near future cause I feel like making a list... eventually. But I have a quick question before I leave, why when you get the hiccups do you get them more than once in a day? I do not know, boggles my mind.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Saturday, May 07, 2005
What?
Yes, my mom did tell me I need to study. And no, I did not lie to her when I said I would. But yes, I am in college and she is not here breathing down my neck. So no, I am not going to study right this minute.
Now that we got that out of the way, on to the next order of business. I will refrain from talking about how much school sucks because God knows that I bitch about it enough already. So I have had this need to write about my pryer(meaning younger) life, but I wasn't really sure where to start. So I will begin with how I failed my life. I changed my mind I don't feel like writing. I am getting mad now. SO MAD!
So in the mean time while I cool down, I will post some picts. Cya.
Now that we got that out of the way, on to the next order of business. I will refrain from talking about how much school sucks because God knows that I bitch about it enough already. So I have had this need to write about my pryer(meaning younger) life, but I wasn't really sure where to start. So I will begin with how I failed my life. I changed my mind I don't feel like writing. I am getting mad now. SO MAD!
So in the mean time while I cool down, I will post some picts. Cya.
Friday, May 06, 2005
On the home stretch!
I have a few things I would like to say:
1. Speech class sucks. Or at least my teacher does.
2. Why in God's name would ANYONE want to study botany?! WHY?
3. I am really out of shape, and I have gotten worse at sharks and minnos.
4. Confession: I don't know how to study.
5. Why do I have this freakish obsession with thinking and dreaming about margrittas? (as I sit here and listen to "Wasting Away in Margrittaville")
6. Is it really sad that I could feel my shins burn when I was walking to class today?
7. I wasn't going to party tonight but there's this really big one that is going on....
8. I have this new thing about poetry, I think I am starting to really like it. Too bad my poetry class just ended when I was just starting to like it.
9. Just because you went to a formal dance last night does not mean you should wear your hair like that the rest of the week.
10. Why on the Old Navy bags did it say "shopping is fun again"? First of all it was never fun and even if it was, did it get boring for a couple of years until they decided they would proclaim it a fun thing to do?
11. I have over 25 pair of shoes. I forgot about 20 pairs. Huh.
12. Finals are overrated. And so is school. And so is swimming.
Ok well now that I have gotten those things off of my chest I would like to say that I AM DONE WITH MY CLASSES! No more freshman year! Hurrah! That went pretty fast, but looking back some things seemed like forever ago.
Today we were talking about things we were going to miss, and I came to the general conclusion I am going to miss this room (oddly enough), and walking to dinner with Ash, Lauren and Maggie. I will not miss the loud neighbors, and I will not miss hall meetings. There are more that fit in each category, but ya. That's the jist of it.
Boys state this weekend, so hopefully I will see both of my brothers swim, it should be a really good meet. I am looking forward to seeing how fast some of those guys are, I will expect to see some records being broken. Besides that my plan is to study, study, study this weekend. As well as maybe a little party tonight... or as my friend said on my message "We are having a HUGE party tonight", you know, same thing.
Ach, I ate too much today. I am feeling shitty, but it's my own fault. Plus everyone who pressured me. Peer pressure these days is at an all time high, I should not feel pressured to eat that much. As I sit here I had a brain block, and the only words that came to my head was captian crunch. O, how very sad. Another random thought I just had was about an accordian, I wonder if it's difficult to play those. They look kinda tricky. I also just decided I need to have a count down until I go to North Carolina. Nevermind, I got to 50 and lost count and decided it would be better if I just waited until it was closer.
And I would like to end how I started with a few last words:
1. I like Jimmy Buffet. I do not like Ashley Simpson.
2. Ramen doesn't fill you up.
3. It would be nice to know what happened to my swim coach...I wonder if he's coming back
4. I can climb a 14er. I've never done it, but it can't be that hard.
5. The song I am listening to is really weird. But Noma Noma is a good one, I think I will listen to that too. And so is "everyone else has had more sex than me". Classic.
6. I think I was only asleep for like two hours last night.
7. I wonder how my rabbit is doing.
8. I didn't think it was possible, but yesterday I saw someone daydream in mid-sentence. It was interesting.
9. This is causing too much thinking.
10. Time to go study.
Until next time. Adios.
O, count down:
Days of school: 3
Days until home: 7
Um...that is all. Goodbye.
1. Speech class sucks. Or at least my teacher does.
2. Why in God's name would ANYONE want to study botany?! WHY?
3. I am really out of shape, and I have gotten worse at sharks and minnos.
4. Confession: I don't know how to study.
5. Why do I have this freakish obsession with thinking and dreaming about margrittas? (as I sit here and listen to "Wasting Away in Margrittaville")
6. Is it really sad that I could feel my shins burn when I was walking to class today?
7. I wasn't going to party tonight but there's this really big one that is going on....
8. I have this new thing about poetry, I think I am starting to really like it. Too bad my poetry class just ended when I was just starting to like it.
9. Just because you went to a formal dance last night does not mean you should wear your hair like that the rest of the week.
10. Why on the Old Navy bags did it say "shopping is fun again"? First of all it was never fun and even if it was, did it get boring for a couple of years until they decided they would proclaim it a fun thing to do?
11. I have over 25 pair of shoes. I forgot about 20 pairs. Huh.
12. Finals are overrated. And so is school. And so is swimming.
Ok well now that I have gotten those things off of my chest I would like to say that I AM DONE WITH MY CLASSES! No more freshman year! Hurrah! That went pretty fast, but looking back some things seemed like forever ago.
Today we were talking about things we were going to miss, and I came to the general conclusion I am going to miss this room (oddly enough), and walking to dinner with Ash, Lauren and Maggie. I will not miss the loud neighbors, and I will not miss hall meetings. There are more that fit in each category, but ya. That's the jist of it.
Boys state this weekend, so hopefully I will see both of my brothers swim, it should be a really good meet. I am looking forward to seeing how fast some of those guys are, I will expect to see some records being broken. Besides that my plan is to study, study, study this weekend. As well as maybe a little party tonight... or as my friend said on my message "We are having a HUGE party tonight", you know, same thing.
Ach, I ate too much today. I am feeling shitty, but it's my own fault. Plus everyone who pressured me. Peer pressure these days is at an all time high, I should not feel pressured to eat that much. As I sit here I had a brain block, and the only words that came to my head was captian crunch. O, how very sad. Another random thought I just had was about an accordian, I wonder if it's difficult to play those. They look kinda tricky. I also just decided I need to have a count down until I go to North Carolina. Nevermind, I got to 50 and lost count and decided it would be better if I just waited until it was closer.
And I would like to end how I started with a few last words:
1. I like Jimmy Buffet. I do not like Ashley Simpson.
2. Ramen doesn't fill you up.
3. It would be nice to know what happened to my swim coach...I wonder if he's coming back
4. I can climb a 14er. I've never done it, but it can't be that hard.
5. The song I am listening to is really weird. But Noma Noma is a good one, I think I will listen to that too. And so is "everyone else has had more sex than me". Classic.
6. I think I was only asleep for like two hours last night.
7. I wonder how my rabbit is doing.
8. I didn't think it was possible, but yesterday I saw someone daydream in mid-sentence. It was interesting.
9. This is causing too much thinking.
10. Time to go study.
Until next time. Adios.
O, count down:
Days of school: 3
Days until home: 7
Um...that is all. Goodbye.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
This might take some time
Once again it has been a long week, and I am going to need a lot of caffine to get me through the night. Of course I have to finish my paper, but I decided that this would be a good warm up...or something like that.
Well today was extremely long, and boring for the most part. Although my plant life teacher just decided to give us twenty points. You would think it would be an easy class, WRONG. Not easy. O well only one more time and the final and I am outta here.
Sick of class, sick of dorm food and sick of the dorms in general. And I can't wait to mention I am pretty sick of swimming. Even though I only went once this week. I just can't wait to get out of here. Or at least be done with everything.
Then I can start work and that wonderful math class I have been so excited for. Ugg. I just need to remind myself it's summer, which is much better than spring, or winter, or fall. Especially since there is no school. And I can actually make some money.
I am also ready to see everyone again, it's been too long. It's just one of those days where I want to sink away from the world until school is officially out. I feel overwhelmed with everything, but I know I'm not the only one. Which makes it seem not as bad, because everyone is going through it, but somehow I feel like I am more behind. My feet are stuck in glue, maybe like three feet deep of rubber cement. And it's going to take me a while to chizzle the shit out of it. So that I can finally get going again. I think it's gonna be a while. Since I am being a negitive nelly, I think that I will just post a poem and call it a day. I wrote it after seeing a painting in the gallery.
FALLING
Splattered colors
I sink my hand into its
Depth
Now I am falling
Through the zig-zag
Bouncing off the
Emerald and jade
Energized strips
Slice
Textured background
Golden spots encircle me
And crowd my vision
Ruby reflects off the violet
Vibrant sapphire seeps through
Subtle tangerine waves
Into magenta
As I am still
Falling into the
Chaos
Of the scribbled
Chicken scratch
Even though that is a little to bright and optimistic for me right now, putting a depressing one would not help my mood. So I will just leave it at that. Now time for the deaded paper. Not looking foward to it. Not at all.
Well today was extremely long, and boring for the most part. Although my plant life teacher just decided to give us twenty points. You would think it would be an easy class, WRONG. Not easy. O well only one more time and the final and I am outta here.
Sick of class, sick of dorm food and sick of the dorms in general. And I can't wait to mention I am pretty sick of swimming. Even though I only went once this week. I just can't wait to get out of here. Or at least be done with everything.
Then I can start work and that wonderful math class I have been so excited for. Ugg. I just need to remind myself it's summer, which is much better than spring, or winter, or fall. Especially since there is no school. And I can actually make some money.
I am also ready to see everyone again, it's been too long. It's just one of those days where I want to sink away from the world until school is officially out. I feel overwhelmed with everything, but I know I'm not the only one. Which makes it seem not as bad, because everyone is going through it, but somehow I feel like I am more behind. My feet are stuck in glue, maybe like three feet deep of rubber cement. And it's going to take me a while to chizzle the shit out of it. So that I can finally get going again. I think it's gonna be a while. Since I am being a negitive nelly, I think that I will just post a poem and call it a day. I wrote it after seeing a painting in the gallery.
FALLING
Splattered colors
I sink my hand into its
Depth
Now I am falling
Through the zig-zag
Bouncing off the
Emerald and jade
Energized strips
Slice
Textured background
Golden spots encircle me
And crowd my vision
Ruby reflects off the violet
Vibrant sapphire seeps through
Subtle tangerine waves
Into magenta
As I am still
Falling into the
Chaos
Of the scribbled
Chicken scratch
Even though that is a little to bright and optimistic for me right now, putting a depressing one would not help my mood. So I will just leave it at that. Now time for the deaded paper. Not looking foward to it. Not at all.
Monday, May 02, 2005
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Fighting with the clock
Well for sake of doing my homework I am back. Once again it is my second most dreaded day of the week, Sunday. Monday tops it off with being the worst, and I would say Wednesday follows that. Nothing exciting happens on those days. I mean granted there's no school on Sunday but it's always the day you need most for recovery from the weekend and then you look at your assignment book and see that there is not even time for anything but homework. Somehow it always works out that way even if I do homework on Saturday, there's always even more to do on Sunday. And then there's those times where I just don't do it at all. Those Sundays are the best, but then the Mondays are the worst.
Anyway a good thing about today is that it is NOT snowing (knock on wood). Even though it is cloudy, it's clearing up. So that makes things better. So this was my last real college weekend. One moment of silence for the last real weekend. It might even be the last ever since I might just fail out.
Ok well I took a moment for the weekend, and I realized that it was an interesting weekend. It was relaxing and laid back. Some might look at it as pathetic, but I see it as invigorating... This was the overview:
Friday: Chipolte and Starbucks, best combo ever. Then we just came back and hung out, it was me, Chris, Lauren, Andy, and Ash for a bit. THEN... (hour later) bed time. What a night let me tell ya. But it was what I needed, because if we really wan ted to go out we would have. If there's a will there's a way.
Ach, nevermind. My weekend was too uneventful to give an overview.
But it was good, just not extremely out of control. And that's exactly how I wanted it. Saturday night was fun, I got my Katie time that is going to be taken away from me pretty soon here. I need as much Katie and Jen time as possible before they are gone. Because three months is a freaking long time.
Took down the good old picts today. So sad. Our room is beginning to look like a real dorm room. How depressing. It is going to be hard to take everything down, it going to look bleak. Just like my life. O no.
Well I have so much homework that I will be doing it all night if I don't start now. And my hands feel flopy. If that's how you spell it. They have no energy, like when you have swam or ran a lot without eating for days and you have only had one sip of water and you have slept not a wink, and your foot is cramping and someone just hit you in the face, or maybe stepped on it. With an Ugg boot, so they left the imprint that says "UGG" and underneath "Australia". That is how they feel.
Ok well I really have to do homework and I am feeling extremely uncreative today and I have to write eight poems. EIGHT. You have to be feeling semi-creative to write that amount of poems. I mean you can wing it if you have to write two and you have no creative spark whatsoever (like I do now), but not eight.
I like how I keep writing about how I have to do homework... three paragraphs later... And I am still here. I just don't want to do it. Two more weeks, I can do it. Until then, it going to be hell. I am already starting to get hot as I near the fire of DOOM. Rambling I know. I am so out of it I feel like I am on drugs. Ok ok. Bye.
Anyway a good thing about today is that it is NOT snowing (knock on wood). Even though it is cloudy, it's clearing up. So that makes things better. So this was my last real college weekend. One moment of silence for the last real weekend. It might even be the last ever since I might just fail out.
Ok well I took a moment for the weekend, and I realized that it was an interesting weekend. It was relaxing and laid back. Some might look at it as pathetic, but I see it as invigorating... This was the overview:
Friday: Chipolte and Starbucks, best combo ever. Then we just came back and hung out, it was me, Chris, Lauren, Andy, and Ash for a bit. THEN... (hour later) bed time. What a night let me tell ya. But it was what I needed, because if we really wan ted to go out we would have. If there's a will there's a way.
Ach, nevermind. My weekend was too uneventful to give an overview.
But it was good, just not extremely out of control. And that's exactly how I wanted it. Saturday night was fun, I got my Katie time that is going to be taken away from me pretty soon here. I need as much Katie and Jen time as possible before they are gone. Because three months is a freaking long time.
Took down the good old picts today. So sad. Our room is beginning to look like a real dorm room. How depressing. It is going to be hard to take everything down, it going to look bleak. Just like my life. O no.
Well I have so much homework that I will be doing it all night if I don't start now. And my hands feel flopy. If that's how you spell it. They have no energy, like when you have swam or ran a lot without eating for days and you have only had one sip of water and you have slept not a wink, and your foot is cramping and someone just hit you in the face, or maybe stepped on it. With an Ugg boot, so they left the imprint that says "UGG" and underneath "Australia". That is how they feel.
Ok well I really have to do homework and I am feeling extremely uncreative today and I have to write eight poems. EIGHT. You have to be feeling semi-creative to write that amount of poems. I mean you can wing it if you have to write two and you have no creative spark whatsoever (like I do now), but not eight.
I like how I keep writing about how I have to do homework... three paragraphs later... And I am still here. I just don't want to do it. Two more weeks, I can do it. Until then, it going to be hell. I am already starting to get hot as I near the fire of DOOM. Rambling I know. I am so out of it I feel like I am on drugs. Ok ok. Bye.
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