Katie and I just getting in a little late night workout. Yeah don't mess with us.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Friday, July 08, 2005
Learn something new everyday
I feel like it's been a long time since I've written anything worth while, so even though it's almost one in the morning, I feel it is my duty to write about my oh so exciting life...
It's been one of those tiring and extremely busy weeks and although I wouldn't have changed one thing about it, I am so ready to lay low. Unfortunately that won't be happening for quite a while. I feel like there are nights where I don't really care if I go out or not, and nights where I do want to go out there is nothing going on. And lately I have just not cared one way or the other, and I find myslef somehow going out every night. It's been fun though, nothing like summer, I can say that much.
Well since I don't really feel like explaining everything that I have done, I am going to make a list of the things I have learned from going out or work... or anything I have done this past week:
1. Even though things don't always work out and you can't meet up with everyone at the Hooka bar sometimes sitting in front of your house talking with an old friend is just as good if not better. Everything happens for a reason.
2. Keep old friends and make new ones, because you never know when they're going to meet, and then everyone can go to a fireworks show together!
3. 7-11 does NOT have marshmellows. I can't even beleive it.
4. Drinking margarittas really fast while watching Fantasia is not as relaxing as it sounds.
5. Kids work best with bribes or threats... I find threats are usually an easier way to handle things.
6. Swimming in foggy pools that makes your skin turn blue is probably not a very good idea... I'm going to stear clear of that one for a while.
7. You don't have to answer every questions you are asked.
8. When your kids in lessons start screaming "OH the horror!" Then you know you might have pushed them a little to hard.
9. When your kids in lessons start calling you miss piggy then you know that something has to be wrong with you.
10. Bike riding always sounds fun, and looks fun...but when you get to the hills you wonder why you wanted to do it so badly.
11. One word: Batman *sigh*
12. Hitting golf balls on the driving range is much harder than it looks...but I still don't think golf is a sport.
13. Being DD is should be considered a form of toture...next to sitting in math class for three hours.
14. Roasting marshmellows and sitting in the hot tub, on the other hand should be considered a form of pure relaxation. Now all we have to do is get a movie going out there and we got it made.
15. Trash juice has to be one of the most unplesant and annoying things ever.
16. When going ice blocking pre cautions should be taken...maybe some padding for the butt.
17. Guard parties should not have to be discused by the board members.
18. Eating half a container of icing in one sitting is not the best idea...and it makes you very thirsty.
19. Hitting people while they are driving is not always the best idea, but if it needs to be done, then it needs to be done.
20. Kids need a good cry before they really understand you are boss.
21. I think talking on the cell phone does cause brain problems, so much that listening math class is just not an option.
22. Sometimes we gave it all we got, and even if it didn't work out, we can look back knowing that there was nothing else that could have been done.
Ok, I am so tired, so I am going to bed. Hope that list provided for valuable learning skills. I know I've sure learned a lot this summer!
It's been one of those tiring and extremely busy weeks and although I wouldn't have changed one thing about it, I am so ready to lay low. Unfortunately that won't be happening for quite a while. I feel like there are nights where I don't really care if I go out or not, and nights where I do want to go out there is nothing going on. And lately I have just not cared one way or the other, and I find myslef somehow going out every night. It's been fun though, nothing like summer, I can say that much.
Well since I don't really feel like explaining everything that I have done, I am going to make a list of the things I have learned from going out or work... or anything I have done this past week:
1. Even though things don't always work out and you can't meet up with everyone at the Hooka bar sometimes sitting in front of your house talking with an old friend is just as good if not better. Everything happens for a reason.
2. Keep old friends and make new ones, because you never know when they're going to meet, and then everyone can go to a fireworks show together!
3. 7-11 does NOT have marshmellows. I can't even beleive it.
4. Drinking margarittas really fast while watching Fantasia is not as relaxing as it sounds.
5. Kids work best with bribes or threats... I find threats are usually an easier way to handle things.
6. Swimming in foggy pools that makes your skin turn blue is probably not a very good idea... I'm going to stear clear of that one for a while.
7. You don't have to answer every questions you are asked.
8. When your kids in lessons start screaming "OH the horror!" Then you know you might have pushed them a little to hard.
9. When your kids in lessons start calling you miss piggy then you know that something has to be wrong with you.
10. Bike riding always sounds fun, and looks fun...but when you get to the hills you wonder why you wanted to do it so badly.
11. One word: Batman *sigh*
12. Hitting golf balls on the driving range is much harder than it looks...but I still don't think golf is a sport.
13. Being DD is should be considered a form of toture...next to sitting in math class for three hours.
14. Roasting marshmellows and sitting in the hot tub, on the other hand should be considered a form of pure relaxation. Now all we have to do is get a movie going out there and we got it made.
15. Trash juice has to be one of the most unplesant and annoying things ever.
16. When going ice blocking pre cautions should be taken...maybe some padding for the butt.
17. Guard parties should not have to be discused by the board members.
18. Eating half a container of icing in one sitting is not the best idea...and it makes you very thirsty.
19. Hitting people while they are driving is not always the best idea, but if it needs to be done, then it needs to be done.
20. Kids need a good cry before they really understand you are boss.
21. I think talking on the cell phone does cause brain problems, so much that listening math class is just not an option.
22. Sometimes we gave it all we got, and even if it didn't work out, we can look back knowing that there was nothing else that could have been done.
Ok, I am so tired, so I am going to bed. Hope that list provided for valuable learning skills. I know I've sure learned a lot this summer!
Monday, July 04, 2005
USA
Happy Fourth of July! I have to say that this has to be one of my favorite holidays, you can't go wrong with bbqs, swimming fireworks and partying! Gotta love it.
I worked all morning until 3:30, but it was barely like work at all since we were in relays and I was the announcer for part of it. So time went by fast and the only real work I did was backwash and fill the cholrine cylinders right before I clocked out. Then I just swam around and now I have to get ready for tonight. I don't really know what's going on--I just heard there were a few parties going on. But I better see some fireworks tonight, that would be pretty lame if we didn't. I will make sure of it.
Couldn't have asked for better weather today, it has been beautiful! It's going to make me miss summer a lot more. Hard to believe that a year ago I was on the beach in Hawaii. Man how time flies. Well I am going to get ready for the festive night! Happy Birthday USA!
I worked all morning until 3:30, but it was barely like work at all since we were in relays and I was the announcer for part of it. So time went by fast and the only real work I did was backwash and fill the cholrine cylinders right before I clocked out. Then I just swam around and now I have to get ready for tonight. I don't really know what's going on--I just heard there were a few parties going on. But I better see some fireworks tonight, that would be pretty lame if we didn't. I will make sure of it.
Couldn't have asked for better weather today, it has been beautiful! It's going to make me miss summer a lot more. Hard to believe that a year ago I was on the beach in Hawaii. Man how time flies. Well I am going to get ready for the festive night! Happy Birthday USA!
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Thursday, June 30, 2005
I knew it!
You are a drumstick.
Absolutely insane. That is how most would describe you. You aren't afraid to take risks, and enjoy putting yourself in strange situations. Most people hang out with you because of your hilarious sense of humour. You light up any bad situation, and can help all of your friends with their problems, except for your own. Because of this, you enjoy being around people like you. Many shut you out for your very weird, random personality, but honestly, you shouldn't care.
Most compatible with: Guitar, and another drumstick.
other people are drumsticks.
Absolutely insane. That is how most would describe you. You aren't afraid to take risks, and enjoy putting yourself in strange situations. Most people hang out with you because of your hilarious sense of humour. You light up any bad situation, and can help all of your friends with their problems, except for your own. Because of this, you enjoy being around people like you. Many shut you out for your very weird, random personality, but honestly, you shouldn't care.
Most compatible with: Guitar, and another drumstick.
other people are drumsticks.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Desert walking
I'm not sick of it, just bored with it. What is "it" you might ask, and I say "it" is my life. I'm not by any means complaining, I am just ready for a change of pace, things are starting to get monotonous and if you know me at all, you would know that I can't stand the same old thing over and over again.
Which is partly why I will be getting a hair cut tomorrow. Wow, what a change. Besides that, same agenda, lessons, work, practice (unless I change my mind and decide to go on a bike ride with Lauren)... Ah, the exciting life I lead. I'm usually too busy, which I think is much better than being too bored, so I'll give it that. What I really need are some hot men to come and take me to the Bahamas where they will fan me with a giant leaf and feed me little cheese cubes and margarittas. Mmmm, now that sounds like a wonderful change of pace.
Well today I worked (and my brother got me really good with the best prank call) and then tonight I had math--not as bad as usual. Except in the last ten minutes when I started rubbing my teeth so they squeeked and Pamela drew a picture of our teacher and we could not stop laughing. Then I came home and chatted with Kristin while I ate like a beast and then headed off to see "The Perfect Guy" with Jenn and Ashley. It was pretty embarassing and something that would be much better saved for a rainy day at home...or maybe just a rainy day in the trash. HA. I am so funny. I think that "Be Cool" could be right next to the other one, it was also pretty lame. I watched that last night with Jenn and Katie after Katie and I ate Chipolte and Starbucks. I better watch out or I will be spending more money than I am making. Let's see... the night before that the cousins spent the night and we stayed in and watched Spiderman 2, which is much, much better than the other two movies, so I was satisfyed after seeing that (even though it was my third time). So, in conclusion I am sick of watching movies. Time to get drunk.
Just kidding. But not really. But a little. Well tomorrow is my last day of working until Sat, which will be really nice, although I do have lessons and privates still. Along with math class and my math tutor and a math test. Best week ever, let me tell ya. Hopefully I can go with Chris to meet Jeff downtown on Friday, that would be good. One of these weekends I want to go hiking in Vail, so I need to figure that out, and just one month until I am boogie boarding on the beach! I am so excited.
Also just a fun fact about me, I have been to Red Robin three times in the last two weeks. Mmm, I really do love it there. I went once with Ryan, once with Chris and his friend and then another time with Krisin. Never fails to please me, so good. Another fun fact is the fingers that got sunburnt a while back now look like 70 year old lady hands, and it's really grossing me out. So sunscreen has become my new best pal. It's about time.
Ok well I am ready to go to bed, so I will be back, no worries. Night.
Which is partly why I will be getting a hair cut tomorrow. Wow, what a change. Besides that, same agenda, lessons, work, practice (unless I change my mind and decide to go on a bike ride with Lauren)... Ah, the exciting life I lead. I'm usually too busy, which I think is much better than being too bored, so I'll give it that. What I really need are some hot men to come and take me to the Bahamas where they will fan me with a giant leaf and feed me little cheese cubes and margarittas. Mmmm, now that sounds like a wonderful change of pace.
Well today I worked (and my brother got me really good with the best prank call) and then tonight I had math--not as bad as usual. Except in the last ten minutes when I started rubbing my teeth so they squeeked and Pamela drew a picture of our teacher and we could not stop laughing. Then I came home and chatted with Kristin while I ate like a beast and then headed off to see "The Perfect Guy" with Jenn and Ashley. It was pretty embarassing and something that would be much better saved for a rainy day at home...or maybe just a rainy day in the trash. HA. I am so funny. I think that "Be Cool" could be right next to the other one, it was also pretty lame. I watched that last night with Jenn and Katie after Katie and I ate Chipolte and Starbucks. I better watch out or I will be spending more money than I am making. Let's see... the night before that the cousins spent the night and we stayed in and watched Spiderman 2, which is much, much better than the other two movies, so I was satisfyed after seeing that (even though it was my third time). So, in conclusion I am sick of watching movies. Time to get drunk.
Just kidding. But not really. But a little. Well tomorrow is my last day of working until Sat, which will be really nice, although I do have lessons and privates still. Along with math class and my math tutor and a math test. Best week ever, let me tell ya. Hopefully I can go with Chris to meet Jeff downtown on Friday, that would be good. One of these weekends I want to go hiking in Vail, so I need to figure that out, and just one month until I am boogie boarding on the beach! I am so excited.
Also just a fun fact about me, I have been to Red Robin three times in the last two weeks. Mmm, I really do love it there. I went once with Ryan, once with Chris and his friend and then another time with Krisin. Never fails to please me, so good. Another fun fact is the fingers that got sunburnt a while back now look like 70 year old lady hands, and it's really grossing me out. So sunscreen has become my new best pal. It's about time.
Ok well I am ready to go to bed, so I will be back, no worries. Night.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Rusty Hinges
Yet another summer day. I know I'm going to miss it on a cold winter night when I'm sitting in my room doing homework, that's for sure.
Well I'm going to go right to what I was just thinking about. I was wondering why everyone always finds the bad in things. I mean, yeah there are days where we complain a lot and days where we are extremely optimistic, but sadly the days where we complain seem to be much more prevelant. And why people always seem to pick out the bad in other people so quickly. Everyone does it, it's almost just habit to jump right in with your opinion about someone and 9 times out of 10 it's not really something that you would say to that person's face. Some people are different, not offering their opinion or saying something nice, but when was the last time you heard "Oh yeah Mary? She's the coolest girl ever and so smart--really good at painting and cutting carrots" Well never probably, but something along those lines. What I'm getting at is we tend to pick apart people's faults rather than their strengths. Not always, but usually. And complaining does have it's fair share in the typical conversation. Don't get me wrong, I do it more than most anyone, but why? I doubt that by whining about it, it's really going to make it better. Even my math teacher was talking about something like that. He told us his son was crying and he asked his son if the crying is going to make him feel better. It never really does (ok, I take that back--it never really does with physical pain) but we do it anyway.
I was just trying to think about what people would say about me if I weren't there. Like if they were asked about me, what they would describe me like. It would probably be something along the lines of "O Jessica? Well she's blond, pretty tan but never wears sunscreen--I bet she'll get cancer. She is a sweet girl but is midly retarded and really bad at math, more specifically fractions. O yeah and she's a stupid bitch. But nice most of the time."
Eh, I don't know exactly, but beleive it or not those are the descriptions I have gotten from people who know me. And I just compilled them together. And there are like two things that could be considered nice. The rest is picking out my faults. And those are my faults, I am not arguing that at all, I think all of that is true, but aren't there other things that are true about me? Things that I am maybe good at? Am I good at anything? Well I would probably have to think about that. Hold on though, I am midly retarded so it might take me a minute to process.
This is why people are so self conscious. Not all of the reason, but society picks out people's faults way way way more than what they are good at. Sometimes one fault is picked out and the person isn't even considered "good enough" to be friends with under their standards. Granted, I am making up some fictional person who seems to be pretty shallow... or maybe it is just most guys. A concrete example of that would be a girl's looks. One glance tells it all for some. I can't help but say that's a little upsetting.
My whole point is that well 1) I am guilty of following this trend and 2) I am going to try to be more optimistic about people and other things. Less complaining. And maybe if more people were to follow this maybe the next time someone would ask about me the response would be more like "O Jessica? She's cool, pretty laid back, funny, she really likes to write, even though she sucks a big one at it. And she has always been a good friend to me."
Ha, I had a hard time with that one. And it proves my point pretty much exactly. I could easily make a list about 20 things that were wrong with me, but when asked to do the opposite, I would have a hard time thinking of even 10 things that I liked about myself. I'll work on that and get that within the next 30 years.
Ok, enough about that, I am definately rambling and going in circles. Instead I will talk about my day...which is pretty much the same as all the rest of my days, with a few things twisted around.
Well I woke up and taught swim lessons where I am running out of things to tell the little kids. There is nothing to do but play Mr. Shark and tell them to blow bubbles and use their big arms. Good thing tomorrow is the last day.
After that I worked, which was fine, it's still so damn hot. Then came home and my math tutor came over. I've never met him, he was nice, but who knows if there's any hope left for me in math. Then I went back to the pool since I knew I wasn't going to practice (if there was any) because I was working a party and I swam laps. And helped my cousin with her flip turn. Then I worked the chaotic "Swim under the stars" night the swim team was doing. Then I came home, talked on the phone a bit, ate some chicky and watched most of two movies.
So not too eventful. Last night I hung out with John and Alex (after class), we ventured to sketch waffle house, which was ok. Just a side note, it's ok if you don't use the whole thing of butter they give you. It's probably more than enough. Let's see... the night before that Elise, Ash and I went to Jenn's and watched Hitch. Afterwards I wanted frosting so Ashley and I went and got some and we ate it while she helped me with math. O man, I am such a fatty. I finished it this morning too. Sooo damn good though. I might have to get another before the summer is over.
Um, the night before that I was going to meet Elise and Laura at a party, but I decided against it and just hung out here, mostly talking on the phone with Kristin. And that day I was at the pool ALL day. When I wasn't working I was swimming there. First time all year I just stayed to swim and I was surprised that I was so entertained. And of course I hung out with my dad for the holiday in his favor. So that brings me back to when I last wrote and this is getting way too boring. Not to mention long.
Not to add to the boringness, but I am excited for tomorrow because it's my day off after lessons and I am going to meet Lauren and Ashley T. at Skyline. Another day at the pool, but at least I won't be working. Back to work on Friday, hopefully there will be practice--I really need to do something. My friend Katie called and left a message about a concert, so hopefully I'm not working and I can go with her to that. But I think I might be working...
Besides that, that's pretty much it. I am missing my girls--I think I am going to try my best to plan a trip to Chicago and we'll all have a fun weekened there. But we'll see about that. One month until North Carolina! I need to start counting down. And I need to plan a pool party at my grandma's. And a guard party. Ahh! Ok, well I am going to bed so I don't have to think anymore. That was too long. Goodnight.
Well I'm going to go right to what I was just thinking about. I was wondering why everyone always finds the bad in things. I mean, yeah there are days where we complain a lot and days where we are extremely optimistic, but sadly the days where we complain seem to be much more prevelant. And why people always seem to pick out the bad in other people so quickly. Everyone does it, it's almost just habit to jump right in with your opinion about someone and 9 times out of 10 it's not really something that you would say to that person's face. Some people are different, not offering their opinion or saying something nice, but when was the last time you heard "Oh yeah Mary? She's the coolest girl ever and so smart--really good at painting and cutting carrots" Well never probably, but something along those lines. What I'm getting at is we tend to pick apart people's faults rather than their strengths. Not always, but usually. And complaining does have it's fair share in the typical conversation. Don't get me wrong, I do it more than most anyone, but why? I doubt that by whining about it, it's really going to make it better. Even my math teacher was talking about something like that. He told us his son was crying and he asked his son if the crying is going to make him feel better. It never really does (ok, I take that back--it never really does with physical pain) but we do it anyway.
I was just trying to think about what people would say about me if I weren't there. Like if they were asked about me, what they would describe me like. It would probably be something along the lines of "O Jessica? Well she's blond, pretty tan but never wears sunscreen--I bet she'll get cancer. She is a sweet girl but is midly retarded and really bad at math, more specifically fractions. O yeah and she's a stupid bitch. But nice most of the time."
Eh, I don't know exactly, but beleive it or not those are the descriptions I have gotten from people who know me. And I just compilled them together. And there are like two things that could be considered nice. The rest is picking out my faults. And those are my faults, I am not arguing that at all, I think all of that is true, but aren't there other things that are true about me? Things that I am maybe good at? Am I good at anything? Well I would probably have to think about that. Hold on though, I am midly retarded so it might take me a minute to process.
This is why people are so self conscious. Not all of the reason, but society picks out people's faults way way way more than what they are good at. Sometimes one fault is picked out and the person isn't even considered "good enough" to be friends with under their standards. Granted, I am making up some fictional person who seems to be pretty shallow... or maybe it is just most guys. A concrete example of that would be a girl's looks. One glance tells it all for some. I can't help but say that's a little upsetting.
My whole point is that well 1) I am guilty of following this trend and 2) I am going to try to be more optimistic about people and other things. Less complaining. And maybe if more people were to follow this maybe the next time someone would ask about me the response would be more like "O Jessica? She's cool, pretty laid back, funny, she really likes to write, even though she sucks a big one at it. And she has always been a good friend to me."
Ha, I had a hard time with that one. And it proves my point pretty much exactly. I could easily make a list about 20 things that were wrong with me, but when asked to do the opposite, I would have a hard time thinking of even 10 things that I liked about myself. I'll work on that and get that within the next 30 years.
Ok, enough about that, I am definately rambling and going in circles. Instead I will talk about my day...which is pretty much the same as all the rest of my days, with a few things twisted around.
Well I woke up and taught swim lessons where I am running out of things to tell the little kids. There is nothing to do but play Mr. Shark and tell them to blow bubbles and use their big arms. Good thing tomorrow is the last day.
After that I worked, which was fine, it's still so damn hot. Then came home and my math tutor came over. I've never met him, he was nice, but who knows if there's any hope left for me in math. Then I went back to the pool since I knew I wasn't going to practice (if there was any) because I was working a party and I swam laps. And helped my cousin with her flip turn. Then I worked the chaotic "Swim under the stars" night the swim team was doing. Then I came home, talked on the phone a bit, ate some chicky and watched most of two movies.
So not too eventful. Last night I hung out with John and Alex (after class), we ventured to sketch waffle house, which was ok. Just a side note, it's ok if you don't use the whole thing of butter they give you. It's probably more than enough. Let's see... the night before that Elise, Ash and I went to Jenn's and watched Hitch. Afterwards I wanted frosting so Ashley and I went and got some and we ate it while she helped me with math. O man, I am such a fatty. I finished it this morning too. Sooo damn good though. I might have to get another before the summer is over.
Um, the night before that I was going to meet Elise and Laura at a party, but I decided against it and just hung out here, mostly talking on the phone with Kristin. And that day I was at the pool ALL day. When I wasn't working I was swimming there. First time all year I just stayed to swim and I was surprised that I was so entertained. And of course I hung out with my dad for the holiday in his favor. So that brings me back to when I last wrote and this is getting way too boring. Not to mention long.
Not to add to the boringness, but I am excited for tomorrow because it's my day off after lessons and I am going to meet Lauren and Ashley T. at Skyline. Another day at the pool, but at least I won't be working. Back to work on Friday, hopefully there will be practice--I really need to do something. My friend Katie called and left a message about a concert, so hopefully I'm not working and I can go with her to that. But I think I might be working...
Besides that, that's pretty much it. I am missing my girls--I think I am going to try my best to plan a trip to Chicago and we'll all have a fun weekened there. But we'll see about that. One month until North Carolina! I need to start counting down. And I need to plan a pool party at my grandma's. And a guard party. Ahh! Ok, well I am going to bed so I don't have to think anymore. That was too long. Goodnight.
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Nothingness with everything written all over it
Welp, I'm back for yet another exciting post. Yipee. Midway through summer report: Same as beginning of summer report. My exciting days usually consist of:
Lessons 10-11
Work 11-3:30
Come home and either do hw or sit until either swimming rolls around at 6:15 or 6 on Tues or Thurs if I have math.
I can't lie, I have been hanging out with people which is nice, but I would like to be doing that a little more than working.
Today I went to my brothers' swim meet (summer league) which was good, it was so damn hot. I cheered them on along with my cousin as a nice older sister/cousin would do. It was my only day to sleep in, but my dad woke me at 9. Boo.
I was there for a couple of hours and actually saw two of my pryer best friends. It seems kinda weird that I would say that or that it would matter, but I have been thinking about friends and life lately and it all makes sense in my head. They were good, I am still on good terms with one of them, he is just busy as am I so it's been hard to get together a lot. On the other hand the other one was basically the same person he was except he just got more...distant, lightly put. Very lightly put. I am debating on just letting it go forever or to try to rekindle what we used to have. I kinda just feel like yelling at him and then kicking him, but we all know I am much more mature than that. Anyway the overall status from the meet was that it was hot and long.
After that I met my good buddy Lauren at her pool and we hung out there for a couple hours and then I went to her house and had dinner and we hung out more after that with other people later. It was really nice to see her and talk to her for a long time, cause it's been a while since we've been able to do that. We had a good long talk and it basically came down to life itself. And her true happiness with where she is in life. I hope I helped her, the situation is extremely difficult.
The talk did make me think about life though and how ridiclous and stupid everyone is. And when I say EVERYONE I mean pretty much every damn person that I know. There are a few that could be discluded, but I even include myself in this. I hate it how people don't like so and so and I don't talk to him or her because of this and that. And yes, I do realize that I get caught up in that drama a lot, but when I was laying the grass looking at the stars tonight I just thought about how small we truly are. I mean we live in this earth, which is a huge thing to us, but then there's the universe and we don't even know how big that is. It continually amazes me how vast this galaxy is. And it always makes me see that we aren't even specs in time. I know I've written about this before but it always gets me how everyone can get so caught up in so much petty shit when there is no reason to. I just need to continually ask myself what really matters. What is the real reason we are here? How do I want to live my life? I don't really know a lot of that, which is scary but at the same time exciting and new. And right now I kind of like the feeling of not having total control of where I am going, it is interesting where I am headed when I am half way blind. I know it won't always be like this, but I'm crusin this way for a while to come.
Well, it's been a long day and I have to get up early tomorrow so I am going to bed. I hope I don't try to strangle someone because they broke my bike in my dream tonight. Because I was pretty pissed in that dream last night.
Ahh, summer. Ahh, life. Nothingness with everything written all over it. Night.
Lessons 10-11
Work 11-3:30
Come home and either do hw or sit until either swimming rolls around at 6:15 or 6 on Tues or Thurs if I have math.
I can't lie, I have been hanging out with people which is nice, but I would like to be doing that a little more than working.
Today I went to my brothers' swim meet (summer league) which was good, it was so damn hot. I cheered them on along with my cousin as a nice older sister/cousin would do. It was my only day to sleep in, but my dad woke me at 9. Boo.
I was there for a couple of hours and actually saw two of my pryer best friends. It seems kinda weird that I would say that or that it would matter, but I have been thinking about friends and life lately and it all makes sense in my head. They were good, I am still on good terms with one of them, he is just busy as am I so it's been hard to get together a lot. On the other hand the other one was basically the same person he was except he just got more...distant, lightly put. Very lightly put. I am debating on just letting it go forever or to try to rekindle what we used to have. I kinda just feel like yelling at him and then kicking him, but we all know I am much more mature than that. Anyway the overall status from the meet was that it was hot and long.
After that I met my good buddy Lauren at her pool and we hung out there for a couple hours and then I went to her house and had dinner and we hung out more after that with other people later. It was really nice to see her and talk to her for a long time, cause it's been a while since we've been able to do that. We had a good long talk and it basically came down to life itself. And her true happiness with where she is in life. I hope I helped her, the situation is extremely difficult.
The talk did make me think about life though and how ridiclous and stupid everyone is. And when I say EVERYONE I mean pretty much every damn person that I know. There are a few that could be discluded, but I even include myself in this. I hate it how people don't like so and so and I don't talk to him or her because of this and that. And yes, I do realize that I get caught up in that drama a lot, but when I was laying the grass looking at the stars tonight I just thought about how small we truly are. I mean we live in this earth, which is a huge thing to us, but then there's the universe and we don't even know how big that is. It continually amazes me how vast this galaxy is. And it always makes me see that we aren't even specs in time. I know I've written about this before but it always gets me how everyone can get so caught up in so much petty shit when there is no reason to. I just need to continually ask myself what really matters. What is the real reason we are here? How do I want to live my life? I don't really know a lot of that, which is scary but at the same time exciting and new. And right now I kind of like the feeling of not having total control of where I am going, it is interesting where I am headed when I am half way blind. I know it won't always be like this, but I'm crusin this way for a while to come.
Well, it's been a long day and I have to get up early tomorrow so I am going to bed. I hope I don't try to strangle someone because they broke my bike in my dream tonight. Because I was pretty pissed in that dream last night.
Ahh, summer. Ahh, life. Nothingness with everything written all over it. Night.
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