Friday, March 04, 2005

Pushing off

I cannot believe this weather, so so nice. I think that nicer weather makes everyone in a better mood, which in turn, makes me in a better mood. Today was one of those days, what can I say. I had to do the whole class thing which is not my favorite thing to do, and I have been genuinally bored. Maybe that means I'm a boring person, at least that's what my mom says. "If you're bored than you're a boring person," which we all know can not be the case. I am highly festive and fun person.
But a widely known fact about school is that it is very draining. I recovered some statistics from Jessica'shead.com and found out that 95% percent of students ranging from the ages of 13-22 find school draining, and mostly uninteresting. Another fact I got from that same website is that 91.2% of college and 76.3% of high school students find drinking to be a release from the draining activity of the deadful thing we like to call school. And 68.7% of students find it pretty damn boring.
OK! Enough with the statistics from that lovely website. I am learning some very interesting things about dreams and I think I am a pro at dream analysis now. I am also a pro at reciting my ABCs backwards while spinning around on my head (haha HEAD SPIN) at the same time I eat a wheel of cheese while braiding a guy's short hair! HA! Wow that is multi tasking if I ever heard it.
Ok well I am going to run stairs...ouch. So peace out girl scouts!

Wednesday, March 02, 2005


Hill Dill, me and Lauren at my grad party. Best cousins ever!! Miss you Hill! Posted by Hello

Lauren me and Lyle at the Beach Club banquet about two summers ago...ahhh we were so tan. Posted by Hello

Ashley and I aww! Posted by Hello

Party at Chip's--pict with the girls! Posted by Hello

Jen, me, Kristin and Katie at a party! That was a crazy weekend. That was when my wonderful video was made. HAHA! Posted by Hello

Sinking

Well I have a shitload of work I should be doing right now, but I have decided to write on this and listen to Nsync. It makes me feel better. Leave me alone. I want to relive my childhood I decided. I just didn't know how good things were back then. I mean think about it, your mom does everything for you, all you are worried about is if you're going to win freeze tag or what you're going to eat for the next meal. And all your clothes get washed for you (actually I know some people that not a whole lot has changed for them...now that I think about it) and you never have homework, and pretty much everyone is friends with each other. Ahhh the good old days.

Well I have so much work to do it feels like someone is just loading books and papers in my arms to read and work on that I am slowly sinking into the ground. And that is not a good feeling. So here I go, it's the beginning of the end. I can't wait until spring break, even though I won't be doing anything. I wish I was going to Mexico. That would be glorious. I want to go there before I turn 21 because what's the point once you're already 21? There is no point whatsoever.
O! My plant life class got cancelled, and it was so nice. We went and ate and saw Jen and kids from her hall so we all had a big breakfast feast together. Ha, and this kid who lives on her floor asked me if I was a summer girl (I said yes...hoping he meant did I like summer) and he said I looked like one because my hair is wavy and I just look like I am summery...? I thought it was cute--he's nice. Just a funny thought.
Ok well I better go get ready for speech...yes. I love it so much... Welp I will be back. Peace.

Me, Maggie and John at my birthday dinner!  Posted by Hello

Yeah, this is why I don't wear lipstick...ha. Posted by Hello

Monday, February 28, 2005

Curses

Curse my short term memory and the wind. And while I'm at it, curse poetry and homework. Curse long distances and dorm food, curse people who don't call or write back, curse bad weather and dry skin.
Ok I will stop that. Also I love my new phone, it's so cool. Here is a list of things I wish I could do:
1. Fix any part of a broken car 2. Surf 3. Play poker well 4. Fix a computer 5. Hang glide
6. Do cool tricks with my car (or at least four wheel) 7. Ice and mountian climb 8. Snowboard well 9. Do cool tricks off the board 10. Dance well 11. Snowmoblie and wake board
12. Swim really fast 13. Know how to work a boat and be able to sail 14. waterski
15. Do gymnastic tricks 16. Ice skate 17. Bike well (and do cool tricks) 18. Knit and sew
19. Memorize quickly 20. Do 12 pull ups by myself 21. Cut hair 24. Play video games like a pro 25. Play the guitar 26. Kick open doors!

Alrighty that's it for now, so I will be back in the future. Now I have to study. Arug. Bye.

In over my head

Well I figured the last blog was enough to last another month, but I couldn't not write in it for another month. So here I am again...avoiding homework. As much as I love learning about lichens and cyanobacteria, I would much rather be doing pretty much anything else (except working at Hobby Lobby and any sort of math). But what I have realized lately is that I am just not that deep of a person. I mean I think I am easy to read and there isn't really that much to me which is probably nothing big. But I wish I would have realized that before I took the lovely class we like to call POETRY, aka I want to die class. I am in way over my head. And there is nothing I can do now but sit back and watch my grade dissapiate right in front of my very eyes. So mom and dad, don't be surprised when I move in with you next year and begin to work at Stein Mart (the horrific store next to Hobby Lobby) because all of the rest of my grades are soon to follow.
Aside from me failing out of school, this weekend was just what I needed. It was nice and relaxing and it was good to see the family again. I also got the added bonuses of hanging out with Lyle and Chris. Always good times. And not to mention the famous shopping with my BZ! I got some shoes and sandles...for the swimming I never do. I did go once last week though, that has to count for something. And I did try running, and all I can say is ouch. I don't know if I already talked about it or not, but yeah. So anyhoot, I got to hang out with my favorite brothers and my wonderful parents, and it was a grand old Dawkins family renunion (especially on the way back from dinner when Grant was in the back of the car moving back and fourth as to shake it while my dad was yelling at him to stop, with Scott humming loudly as he hiccuped and me yelling I had to pee really bad while my mom was trying to tell my dad to slow down--ahh just what I needed to remember where I came from).
K back to the bacteria, but I just wanted to come on and say those few things. And boy do I miss Starbucks...mmmm but I got enough of it this weekend, hopefully it can fuel me through the longest two weeks before spring break. ARUG. Ok bye.

Sunday, February 27, 2005


This is me swimming fly (now play the inspirational music). Posted by Hello

Friday, February 25, 2005

Blinks in time

The answer is no. NO I do not have a life. That is why this little blog is my only friend. Let me say that yesterday I actually had an intelluctual converstation with the one and only Kristin who is very intuellucutal herself. But it really made me think, I feel like Derek Zoolander and he asks his reflection "Who am I?" and it responds "I don't know". I mean who are we? If you think about it our lives are like nothing in the big scheme of things. Now I'm not saying I am nothing, I'm just saying that in 100 years from now, I don't think anyone on this earth will have any idea who I am. It's sad, but true. I mean it's just the human race in general, we've only been living here a short period of time compared to the dinosaurs. They were just beginning their existance and we feel we have gotten so far in life. Ha.
We have accomplished a lot in our pathetic excuse for existance, it's amazing at how smart humans are. Like how did the first caveman even know how to make fire? Did it happen by accident? All I know is that is amazing. I'm sure they were frightened of it at first too, I mean think about it, not knowing what fire is and seeing it for the first time would scare the shit out of me. And who thought of computers and dvds and cds and how they all work is beyond me. Some people would think that is common sense, but I don't even know how my desk was built. Yeah with wood and stuff but if I were to live by myself for a period of time, I would die within two weeks I would say because I would either starve, be killed by another animal, freeze to death or I might just catch myself on fire (assuming I got a fire going in the first place).
This conversation all started out with a mere apple yesterday at lunch and I just found it weird that I was eating this strange thing that grows off a tree. And then Kristin and I became immediately amazed by everything surrounding us, and I felt like I was stoned. Or at least what I hear it's like to be stoned. How did people know way back in the day what they could eat and not eat? Was it all trial and error. Like one day Bob eats a deadly mushroom and the next week he dies and his friend LaShandra writes it down in her record book "note to self: don't eat red mushroom"?? I mean how did that all come about?
Also in plant life we learned about this specific type of fungi that grows on the tips of wheat. And looking back researchers found out that that was the same stuff that was growing during the Salem Witch trials. So they were harvesting that wheat and eating the posionous fungi. Our teacher told us that it makes people hallucinate and constricts your veins and is extremely painful. Also it causes women who are pregunant to abort their childeren or cause deformities. So all these women were having deformed childeren with extra limbs and stuff and people thought that was the work of the devil. So they burned them. She also said it can be linked back in biblical stories about visions certian figures had. So what if half of the stuff we learned in church wasn't even true, it's all just made up but people thought it was true because they were sick. Who knows... they could have all been eating posions except Jesus!
I don't necessairly believe that, it's just an interesting thought. I just don't see why none of that cool stuff can happen today. This is just the thoughts going on in my head, I don't really know what to make of it. What I do know is that people spend more than half their lives trying to make money and by the time they finally have enough and they want to retire, they're too old to do much of anything. It's sad really how our society is so centered around money and how eveything you want to do always seems to cost so much. I mean life is so short if you look at the big picture, we are all so meaningless in the big existence. Just like blinks in time. So small we can barely even see who existed when.
Those are just some thoughts, but it drives home my philosophy about life. It's too short so live it to it's fullest. And yes that is cliched and repetitive and I've heard it a million times, but I still believe it and I try tell myself just that much more. Our families aren't here forever, and as sad as it is to think about, one day my parents won't be here and I will have to see that happen. I mean the people you grew up with all your life are going to disappear slowly. And getting old is going to be awful. Ha, I think I'm fat now, I should just be happy with myself because it's not going to get a lot better. Especially when I'm old and wrinkley.
So I am going to try to have a better outlook on things. Not saying that I think everything sucks now, just saying there is not much of a reason for me not to be happy. And I am going to value my friends and family that much more, because they are my everything.
Well that entry was somewhat disturbing, but it was thought provoking (for me at least) and just boggles my mind all of the things I am so clueless about (a lot more than most people). But that's all I want to say for now. I won't write again till later this weekend since I am going home to get my new cell phone! YAY! And don't even get me started on how cell phones work... it's amazing. What a world we live in.
O yes, and how does space go on FOREVER? I mean is there a limit to how far the universe can go for? And Kristin informed me that the earth is 1/10000 of the sun! And our continent is smaller than that and so is our country and then you zoom into tiny Colorado and my town and then me. I am just a spec. And then the bacteria and an ATOM. Wow. What if we are just inside of something bigger? What if our universe is someone else's pebble and we are within their universe as well? And I just don't get how the world is round. I mean I do in a sense, but it's hard to see when you are just swimming in the ocean. It seems like there is an ending when the sky hits the sea. Again, what a world we live in.
Ok time for class. My head hurts, I don't want to think anymore. taha BYE.

Thursday, February 24, 2005


Lauren and I with the Hawaiians! The hottest one ran away with the torch...damn. Posted by Hello

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

BiTs aNd PieCeS

Hey hey. Today is a day that will go down in history. I did some homework before it got dark!! I know it's a lot to handle, but it's true. There are a few thoughts that I would like to have in the record books. First of all I am sore. Yes, that's so sad because we lifted normal weights yesterday but it's because we haven't lifted in a while. But we are going to run (if I can learn how) and then go in the hot tub, no swimming tonight. Secondly I must say that country music makes me in a good mood, even though I don't like all of it, I do like most of it. I like a lot of different types of music. ANYDANGWAY, I would like to either a) go skiing/snowboarding or b) go to the beach. One of those would be great. OK story time!
Ahem, today a girl we shall call her... Katinka, she was at lunch with her friends. She's not the brightest girl you will have ever met because Katinka has done some pretty dumb things in her life, things like turn into of a 300 pound man's car, get lost when she was five minutes from her house, ate shit right next to a sign that read "Caution wet steps", asked someone how he takes pictures of two people when there is just two people, bitten into a tomato and had the juice squirt out onto a random stranger in front of her... various things like that, and she tends to get lost and wander away often. So back to the story, she was trying to throw a chunk of food on her friend's plate, but over estimated her distance and thew it into the meal of another fellow student. Katinka was embarassed but that's what she gets for being stupid. HA HA dumb Katinka.
Wasn't that the best story you ever heard? I bet so. Best damn story I ever told. Now I must go partake in some birthday festivities across the hall.
That was the big bash of '05!! Sweetness. We made characters out of balloons, what could be better than that. GOOD NEWS! I am getting a new cellular device this weekend when I go home. YESSS finally. How do cell phones even work? I mean I know some of how they work, but who thought of a phone and phone lines and all that stuff. I will tell you who. Alexander Graham Bell that's who. Pure genius. Another thing Maroon 5 is coming to town April 26th, Pepsi Center at 7! I have to get tickets...humm who out of my three friends would want to come? Don't all jump at once on this one. Well before I go I want to give a shout out to the things you use everyday, but you don't think about them (and the brand names that made them):

Thanks to Wal-Mart for providing me with socks that keeping my feet warm
Thanks to Just Basic for making hair ties without metal parts that keep my mop out of my face
Thanks Equate for making nutrient enriched lotion that keeps my skin smooth
Thank you Blistex for making chapstick that keeps my lips kissable
I wanna thank Athletic Works for making lifting gloves so I don't get blisters. And even though people may think I am swaying the opposite way--I DONT CARE THEY HELP ME!
I want to give a shout out to Swingline for making my stapler that I use on a daily basis.
And last but not least Scotch for providing me with my much needed tape to hang up pictures. And the duct tape company because I use that with everything, Duct tape you are my answer to everything!
So thank you everyone! I am going to go do my homewok, but I will be back! Peace and hair grease.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005


Me on a tractor.  Posted by Hello

Monday, February 21, 2005

Ebony

Ok, well I really should be going to bed. Because it's late and I have to wake up early. But I just wanted to come on and say a few things. First of all I titled this peice "Ebony" because it's really dark in this room and I just learned that word this weekend. What a great word. Secondly, I just finished writing these setting things for creative writing and I think I did mine wrong. Oh well I am doing really bad in school right now. But we won't talk about that.
On the other hand I have good news. I have somewhat recovered my imagination. I didn't get all of it back, but it's coming back to me slowly. I just needed a little inspiration and a little bit of love and WHAM it's gonna all hit me. No, not really. The point here is that I am feeling a little better upstairs but I still have some cobwebs to clean out. So my point being I am writing my speech about dreams (Ashley actually helped me think of that) and my story is about all this interesting stuff. Even though Lauren did mention that it was kinda like the Disney movie "Johnny Sunami"...yeah...
Also, I would just like to say a few of my favorite words: Plethora, epiphony, tubular, annialate, DOMINATE, luscious, enchanted, spectacular... those are just a few. I just felt like saying that. Don't make fun of me. And here kids is the defination of the day Talisman is a trinket, object or charm. Another thing I would like to say is Hitch was pretty funny, and I had a good weekend. But I didn't get anything done. But if you have nothing else to do you can:

A. Have a dance party with your friends to old NSYNC music
B. Make up creepy voices to songs (especially interesting parts of songs)
C. Listen to your roommate and the kid next door get in a "fight"
D. Lint roll your floor
E. Watch the All-Star dunk contest.
So there are some things you can do if there is absoutely nothing else to do. In which case there usually isn't and then those things turn out to be a lot of fun. But I really did have fun dancing to Nsync. And making up the voices. That was a good night. Or you can always make up characters with your roommate... you have the dorks with the glasses and high pants--Chad and Peter, you have your deep voiced man, Dan, you have your Asian folk...you get the point. But it's always good for some laughs.
Well I'm going to go to bed. This was pretty unproductive as usual, but otherwise I would just be sleeping... and how fun is that. Especially when you have weird dreams about random people. Ok well goodnight!

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Crystal wall

Hello. All I have to say is that I am really full and I should have worked out today. At least I did laundry. There is this really cool (well I think it's cool) website where the camera zooms in really far and you can see the smallest details. Jeff told me about it, it's http://www.gigapxl.org/gallery.htm. Just thought that was interesting, and yes, I am easily amused, but I think it's pretty sweet.
Also I would just like to say that the coolest website ever is www.homestarrunner.com I really like strongbad e-mails and teengirl squad. It's good for a barrel of laughs.
Well I am going to get ready for the moive, I think we are going to see Hitch, so hopefully it's as funny as it looks. I am kinda behind on my homework, but I will do it tomorrow. We are also going to look at our house and my parents and Lauren's parents are coming to see it. So I think this is it kids! But here are some things I have been thinking about: how do cameras work? And what ever happened to that Krystal light drink? And those yummy kuala snacks? O! Dunkarros were so good! Alex got me some of those and we ate them on the way to Hawaii. Mmmm. Ok I'm really going to go now, so BYE BYE!

The swim team a couple of years ago at La Jolla cove, it was so pretty! Posted by Hello

The New Year's eve cowd, Alex Scott, John, Elise and Laura. Posted by Hello