Saturday, July 02, 2005


PICTURES OF THE SUMMER! Kristin and I at dinner. Posted by Picasa

Ash and Elise at din din Posted by Picasa

Elise (kind ouf cut off--nice job Amy), Ashley, me and Kristin after our night out to dinner Posted by Picasa

The crew at Amy's! Posted by Picasa

Alex and I at Amy's Posted by Picasa

Lauren and I at Urban Outfitters. We really liked these hats, thought we might even buy them to shade our heads...but unfortunatley they were way out of our price rage. Posted by Picasa

Hillary and I getting ready for the pool! Posted by Picasa

Chris and I Posted by Picasa

Elise and I waiting for Chipolte to open, trying to catch some rays. I like her crinkled nose. We needed a little rest, sleeping in closets isn't the most comfortable... Posted by Picasa

And the summer begins! Todd and I at Matt's Posted by Picasa

Lauren, Ashley and I on our last day of school outside our dorm Posted by Picasa

Thursday, June 30, 2005

I knew it!

You are a drumstick.

Absolutely insane. That is how most would describe you. You aren't afraid to take risks, and enjoy putting yourself in strange situations. Most people hang out with you because of your hilarious sense of humour. You light up any bad situation, and can help all of your friends with their problems, except for your own. Because of this, you enjoy being around people like you. Many shut you out for your very weird, random personality, but honestly, you shouldn't care.

Most compatible with: Guitar, and another drumstick.

other people are drumsticks.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Desert walking

I'm not sick of it, just bored with it. What is "it" you might ask, and I say "it" is my life. I'm not by any means complaining, I am just ready for a change of pace, things are starting to get monotonous and if you know me at all, you would know that I can't stand the same old thing over and over again.

Which is partly why I will be getting a hair cut tomorrow. Wow, what a change. Besides that, same agenda, lessons, work, practice (unless I change my mind and decide to go on a bike ride with Lauren)... Ah, the exciting life I lead. I'm usually too busy, which I think is much better than being too bored, so I'll give it that. What I really need are some hot men to come and take me to the Bahamas where they will fan me with a giant leaf and feed me little cheese cubes and margarittas. Mmmm, now that sounds like a wonderful change of pace.

Well today I worked (and my brother got me really good with the best prank call) and then tonight I had math--not as bad as usual. Except in the last ten minutes when I started rubbing my teeth so they squeeked and Pamela drew a picture of our teacher and we could not stop laughing. Then I came home and chatted with Kristin while I ate like a beast and then headed off to see "The Perfect Guy" with Jenn and Ashley. It was pretty embarassing and something that would be much better saved for a rainy day at home...or maybe just a rainy day in the trash. HA. I am so funny. I think that "Be Cool" could be right next to the other one, it was also pretty lame. I watched that last night with Jenn and Katie after Katie and I ate Chipolte and Starbucks. I better watch out or I will be spending more money than I am making. Let's see... the night before that the cousins spent the night and we stayed in and watched Spiderman 2, which is much, much better than the other two movies, so I was satisfyed after seeing that (even though it was my third time). So, in conclusion I am sick of watching movies. Time to get drunk.

Just kidding. But not really. But a little. Well tomorrow is my last day of working until Sat, which will be really nice, although I do have lessons and privates still. Along with math class and my math tutor and a math test. Best week ever, let me tell ya. Hopefully I can go with Chris to meet Jeff downtown on Friday, that would be good. One of these weekends I want to go hiking in Vail, so I need to figure that out, and just one month until I am boogie boarding on the beach! I am so excited.

Also just a fun fact about me, I have been to Red Robin three times in the last two weeks. Mmm, I really do love it there. I went once with Ryan, once with Chris and his friend and then another time with Krisin. Never fails to please me, so good. Another fun fact is the fingers that got sunburnt a while back now look like 70 year old lady hands, and it's really grossing me out. So sunscreen has become my new best pal. It's about time.

Ok well I am ready to go to bed, so I will be back, no worries. Night.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Rusty Hinges

Yet another summer day. I know I'm going to miss it on a cold winter night when I'm sitting in my room doing homework, that's for sure.

Well I'm going to go right to what I was just thinking about. I was wondering why everyone always finds the bad in things. I mean, yeah there are days where we complain a lot and days where we are extremely optimistic, but sadly the days where we complain seem to be much more prevelant. And why people always seem to pick out the bad in other people so quickly. Everyone does it, it's almost just habit to jump right in with your opinion about someone and 9 times out of 10 it's not really something that you would say to that person's face. Some people are different, not offering their opinion or saying something nice, but when was the last time you heard "Oh yeah Mary? She's the coolest girl ever and so smart--really good at painting and cutting carrots" Well never probably, but something along those lines. What I'm getting at is we tend to pick apart people's faults rather than their strengths. Not always, but usually. And complaining does have it's fair share in the typical conversation. Don't get me wrong, I do it more than most anyone, but why? I doubt that by whining about it, it's really going to make it better. Even my math teacher was talking about something like that. He told us his son was crying and he asked his son if the crying is going to make him feel better. It never really does (ok, I take that back--it never really does with physical pain) but we do it anyway.

I was just trying to think about what people would say about me if I weren't there. Like if they were asked about me, what they would describe me like. It would probably be something along the lines of "O Jessica? Well she's blond, pretty tan but never wears sunscreen--I bet she'll get cancer. She is a sweet girl but is midly retarded and really bad at math, more specifically fractions. O yeah and she's a stupid bitch. But nice most of the time."
Eh, I don't know exactly, but beleive it or not those are the descriptions I have gotten from people who know me. And I just compilled them together. And there are like two things that could be considered nice. The rest is picking out my faults. And those are my faults, I am not arguing that at all, I think all of that is true, but aren't there other things that are true about me? Things that I am maybe good at? Am I good at anything? Well I would probably have to think about that. Hold on though, I am midly retarded so it might take me a minute to process.

This is why people are so self conscious. Not all of the reason, but society picks out people's faults way way way more than what they are good at. Sometimes one fault is picked out and the person isn't even considered "good enough" to be friends with under their standards. Granted, I am making up some fictional person who seems to be pretty shallow... or maybe it is just most guys. A concrete example of that would be a girl's looks. One glance tells it all for some. I can't help but say that's a little upsetting.

My whole point is that well 1) I am guilty of following this trend and 2) I am going to try to be more optimistic about people and other things. Less complaining. And maybe if more people were to follow this maybe the next time someone would ask about me the response would be more like "O Jessica? She's cool, pretty laid back, funny, she really likes to write, even though she sucks a big one at it. And she has always been a good friend to me."
Ha, I had a hard time with that one. And it proves my point pretty much exactly. I could easily make a list about 20 things that were wrong with me, but when asked to do the opposite, I would have a hard time thinking of even 10 things that I liked about myself. I'll work on that and get that within the next 30 years.

Ok, enough about that, I am definately rambling and going in circles. Instead I will talk about my day...which is pretty much the same as all the rest of my days, with a few things twisted around.
Well I woke up and taught swim lessons where I am running out of things to tell the little kids. There is nothing to do but play Mr. Shark and tell them to blow bubbles and use their big arms. Good thing tomorrow is the last day.
After that I worked, which was fine, it's still so damn hot. Then came home and my math tutor came over. I've never met him, he was nice, but who knows if there's any hope left for me in math. Then I went back to the pool since I knew I wasn't going to practice (if there was any) because I was working a party and I swam laps. And helped my cousin with her flip turn. Then I worked the chaotic "Swim under the stars" night the swim team was doing. Then I came home, talked on the phone a bit, ate some chicky and watched most of two movies.

So not too eventful. Last night I hung out with John and Alex (after class), we ventured to sketch waffle house, which was ok. Just a side note, it's ok if you don't use the whole thing of butter they give you. It's probably more than enough. Let's see... the night before that Elise, Ash and I went to Jenn's and watched Hitch. Afterwards I wanted frosting so Ashley and I went and got some and we ate it while she helped me with math. O man, I am such a fatty. I finished it this morning too. Sooo damn good though. I might have to get another before the summer is over.

Um, the night before that I was going to meet Elise and Laura at a party, but I decided against it and just hung out here, mostly talking on the phone with Kristin. And that day I was at the pool ALL day. When I wasn't working I was swimming there. First time all year I just stayed to swim and I was surprised that I was so entertained. And of course I hung out with my dad for the holiday in his favor. So that brings me back to when I last wrote and this is getting way too boring. Not to mention long.

Not to add to the boringness, but I am excited for tomorrow because it's my day off after lessons and I am going to meet Lauren and Ashley T. at Skyline. Another day at the pool, but at least I won't be working. Back to work on Friday, hopefully there will be practice--I really need to do something. My friend Katie called and left a message about a concert, so hopefully I'm not working and I can go with her to that. But I think I might be working...

Besides that, that's pretty much it. I am missing my girls--I think I am going to try my best to plan a trip to Chicago and we'll all have a fun weekened there. But we'll see about that. One month until North Carolina! I need to start counting down. And I need to plan a pool party at my grandma's. And a guard party. Ahh! Ok, well I am going to bed so I don't have to think anymore. That was too long. Goodnight.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Nothingness with everything written all over it

Welp, I'm back for yet another exciting post. Yipee. Midway through summer report: Same as beginning of summer report. My exciting days usually consist of:
Lessons 10-11
Work 11-3:30
Come home and either do hw or sit until either swimming rolls around at 6:15 or 6 on Tues or Thurs if I have math.
I can't lie, I have been hanging out with people which is nice, but I would like to be doing that a little more than working.
Today I went to my brothers' swim meet (summer league) which was good, it was so damn hot. I cheered them on along with my cousin as a nice older sister/cousin would do. It was my only day to sleep in, but my dad woke me at 9. Boo.
I was there for a couple of hours and actually saw two of my pryer best friends. It seems kinda weird that I would say that or that it would matter, but I have been thinking about friends and life lately and it all makes sense in my head. They were good, I am still on good terms with one of them, he is just busy as am I so it's been hard to get together a lot. On the other hand the other one was basically the same person he was except he just got more...distant, lightly put. Very lightly put. I am debating on just letting it go forever or to try to rekindle what we used to have. I kinda just feel like yelling at him and then kicking him, but we all know I am much more mature than that. Anyway the overall status from the meet was that it was hot and long.

After that I met my good buddy Lauren at her pool and we hung out there for a couple hours and then I went to her house and had dinner and we hung out more after that with other people later. It was really nice to see her and talk to her for a long time, cause it's been a while since we've been able to do that. We had a good long talk and it basically came down to life itself. And her true happiness with where she is in life. I hope I helped her, the situation is extremely difficult.

The talk did make me think about life though and how ridiclous and stupid everyone is. And when I say EVERYONE I mean pretty much every damn person that I know. There are a few that could be discluded, but I even include myself in this. I hate it how people don't like so and so and I don't talk to him or her because of this and that. And yes, I do realize that I get caught up in that drama a lot, but when I was laying the grass looking at the stars tonight I just thought about how small we truly are. I mean we live in this earth, which is a huge thing to us, but then there's the universe and we don't even know how big that is. It continually amazes me how vast this galaxy is. And it always makes me see that we aren't even specs in time. I know I've written about this before but it always gets me how everyone can get so caught up in so much petty shit when there is no reason to. I just need to continually ask myself what really matters. What is the real reason we are here? How do I want to live my life? I don't really know a lot of that, which is scary but at the same time exciting and new. And right now I kind of like the feeling of not having total control of where I am going, it is interesting where I am headed when I am half way blind. I know it won't always be like this, but I'm crusin this way for a while to come.

Well, it's been a long day and I have to get up early tomorrow so I am going to bed. I hope I don't try to strangle someone because they broke my bike in my dream tonight. Because I was pretty pissed in that dream last night.

Ahh, summer. Ahh, life. Nothingness with everything written all over it. Night.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Bedtime story

Time flies. Even if you aren't really having that much fun, I have decided that time flies no matter what. I don't really know where that came from, but I feel so old. Welp, summer is going. It's nothing extremely exciting, just the same old. When I'm not working I'm either swimming, at class or talking on the phone. After tonight I decided that I am really good at helping people fall asleep. So if you ever have trouble getting sleep, just call me and I am a guarenteed bore--I will for sure put you right to sleep. I got four in just one night! I'm on a role. Aint no stopping me now.

Well I have had a few days off from work and there is still way too much I have to do. Little things that always put a damper on the mood. I mean I have the whole day tomorrow, but there are a million things I should be doing--especially studying and oh how I am dreading that. In fact I need to just go write out a to do list. Well since I love my lists I am going to make one of some of the things I have done in the past few days:
-Block party
-Hung out with old friends
-Worked (and made some extra for a party!)
-Class
-Swam
-Talked on the phone
-Lifted
-Ate
-Got annoyed
-Got hyper
-Took a shower
There are some other things but I think I will let that be a mystery. I am quite mysterious.
Geeze, I am boring. I am even bored with myself. No wonder everyone fell asleep. I'm about to fall asleep writing this. But I will avoid the temptation because there is more to say.
Or is there?
Humm. There is stuff in my head, but I am not willing to write it all out. Too much effot. This is what I will do:

I am sad because I miss the friends I have lost, the memories will always be with me. Also I miss the innocense of childhood.
I am happy because I love the friends I have gained, and the memories that are to come. Also because I am so lucky to live the life I do.
I am nervous because I don't know what next year is going to bring--I don't even know what tomorrow is going to bring. Plus I have a math test coming up...
I am scared because I don't know if I will ever find the one. I don't know what I am going to do with the rest of my life and I don't know if I should take big risks.
I am excited because I know I have time to decide what I want to do, I am still young and have lots of time. I also know that I have a lot to look forward to.

Ok, I am getting tired of that. I think that I am so boring I am just going to go to bed. Maybe next time I won't put everyone including myself to sleep.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Sunburnt finger

Ok, well I had good intentions to go to swim practice but I don't have any way of getting there, so I guess I can't go. I really need to though, but I will just work out at my house later. So with that important news out of the way we can get on to other happenings in my life.

Ok, well that's that then. Bye.

Just kidding. But seriously, Today I went to morning pracitce and after I treated Lauren and I to a nice breakfast and she treated me to a fun day at the pool. And then I went to math class after doing some homework. And afterwards Pamela and I went to Chipolte. So it was a pretty good day, except class which is sooo looong. Tomorrow I am working once again (surprise, surprise) and then I don't know what else! No later practice so I have the whole night ahead of me! What am I to do with all this free time on my hands?! We shall see.

But until then I will be sleeping and doing all those things that I do... And I have one last thing to say, my pointer fingers got sunburnt. They are so hot. I think that is a really random place to get sunburnt. I'll make sure to put sunscreen there next time...

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

A wonderful survey

Ok I think surveys are fun so I am going to do a few (the last of things):

Last movie seen in theatures: Madagascar
Last movie rented: Closer
Last CD played: DMB "Busted Stuff"
Last weird encounter: Last week when we saw KC's friend at dinner
Last shoes worn: My red flip flops
Last sleep: Last night
Last time hugged: My brother or my mom
Last ice cream eaten: Ben and Jerry's a few days ago
Last phone call: Lauren
Last word(s) uttered: Stop coming in here and making loud noises (directed towards Grant)
Last car ride: Driving home from practice
Last beverage drank: Dr. Pepper
Last food consumed: Subway
Last chair sat in: Lifeguard chair (or this one now)
Last thing written: Bye (in my journal)
Last TV show watched: O man, it was so long ago.... I watched a movie yesterday, but I haven't really watched TV much this summer
Last alcoholic beverage: Unless you count the flask I bring with me to work... no just kidding, um I would say last Monday
Last cuss word: Damn ("Damn there's nothing to drink")
Last dream remembered: Last night I was swimming and there was a glas wall separting the pool and all of these deep sea creatures

Ok, here's an EITHER/OR:
Club or houseparty: Houseparty
Hard liquor or beer: Hard
Single or taken: Single
Pen or pencil: Pen
Gloves or mittens: Gloves
Food or candy: Food
Hiking or backpacking: Hiking (except I have never backpacked...)
Mountians or beach: I would normally say beach right away, but lately the mountians have looked appealing to me, so right now, mountians
Cash or card: Cash
Running or swimming: Swimming, I suck at running
Skiing or snowboarding: Skiing for now
Boogie boarding or surfing: Boogie boarding only cause I don't know how to surf
Paperback or hardback: Paperback
Magazine or newspaper: Magazine
Mexican or Chinese: Chinese (food of course!)
Bath or shower: Shower
Writing or reading: Writing lately
Warm or Cold: I would rather be in a warm place, but as far as body temp goes I would rather be cold because I think it's easier to get warm
Sunrise or sunset: Sunset

HAVE YOU EVER:
Broken a bone: Nope, knock on wood
Broken the law: Of course not! :)
Run away from home: No
Played truth or dare: Yeah, but it's always real lame
Kissed someone you didn't know: Um...not really
Come close to dying: Not really
Been out of the country: Yes, Canada
Flown across the ocean: Yup
Seen any of the wonders of the world: Maybe, is Niagra Falls one?
Lied to someone close to you: Yeah
Working hard or hardly working: I have found that working hard pays off
Been in love: Nope
Smoked: No (and that hit off that cig does not count, plus I learned my lesson)
Won something big: Yeah (state)
Dated one of your best friends: Um yeah
Cried for no reason: Usually I have some sort of reason

Ok, last one, DO I
Have a dream that keeps coming back: Not a specific one, but I've had lots of dreams with sharks or sea creatures
Read the newspaper: No way jose
Believe in miracles: Yes
Consider yourself tolerant of others: Almost too tolerant
Consider love a mistake: No
Have a favorite candy: I probably do, but I am trying not to think about it so NO!
Have peircings: Yeah just three on my ears
Have an obsession: Do boys count? Ha, no not currently (I used to be obsessed with NSYNC, thankfully that's over with)
Have a secret crush: Why would I tell if it's secret!! Geeze
Care about your looks: To a certain extent but I beleive it's more important what you are like on the inside rather than the outside
Have one main goal in life: To live it to it's fullest!
Hate anyone: I don't think so
Hate anything: Math
Have pet peeves: Yeah, wearing sunglasses inside, smoking, not calling people back, being rude when there's no reason, broken promises...
Like to travel: Of course! Wish I could more
Like surprises: Yes, I love them
Like uncertainty: Sometimes
Live in the past, present or future: I would say I live in the past a lot, but I am getting better at living in the present
Diet: Nope, never have although I am trying to eat healthier lately
Cry a lot: No, barley ever
Like meeting people: Yeah
Wish the same thing every time you make a wish: Um, yeah probably

K that's it, I have to get ready for class. Some of those I took off some other surverys, some I just made up myself, just so I could keep it fresh. So since I have no life I will be back soon. Hope that was somewhat entertaining, if not, at least I can entertain myself.

Monday, May 30, 2005


Although I was jumping for joy on the last day of school, I was sad when leaving my wonderful dorm room. Aww, just look at that pouty face:( Posted by Hello

Me poking my head out from this here "tree", I'm just peaking around that branch. Posted by Hello