So I should have known I would procrastinate my my OWN assignment to myself. It's been harder than I thought though and I have been thinking. Promise. I have written a few things outside of my blog that have helped me start to get my ideas sorted. I have also been taking suggestions from people with what to write and where to start. I always find starting something is the hardest thing. So I started from something I had already done for a little push. I went back and read my old journals from high school, my journals from college, from Japan and a lot of my old blog posts from Japan as well as this blog. Whew. That's a lot of reading because man, I wrote a lot. Too much. But it was good to read. I didn't realize how much I've changed writing wise and how my outlook on life has changed until I read them, yet the overall core of who I am has stayed the same. It always will.
So going with the theme of my core staying the same, I decided to continue my trip down memory lane by looking at old pictures. There are so many things I have forgotten from my childhood that have helped shape me into who I am today. Reading through all of my old stuff and looking at these pictures I know how truly fortunate I was. How truly fortunate I still am. Although I don't want to admit it, I had almost forgotten how spoiled I was as a kid. And most of the time I even take it for granted now. Every summer we would take a family trip (all 19 of us) to either the mountians or the beach. Every other Christmas we would all get together and stay in a cabin and go skiing. I spent my summer days at the neighborhood pool or at my grandma's pool. I stayed out and played with my friends, went to swimming, tennis and camps. I invented games with my brothers in the backyard, I got to pick out what rabbits and dogs I wanted for pets. I was the best dressed kid thanks to my mom and her festive outfits she made me. I was truly happy and I think a happy childhood usually leads to a healthy, happy adulthood. I am very glad I have had direction and I have been carefree and happy for my entire 23 (almost 24!) years of existance.
So where does that lead me with my writing now? I have no idea. The thoughts still swirl around without anywhere to go. Yet. I'm going to get there someday. Sometimes a specific topic is discovered when you aren't even trying for it. Maybe I will just do as I've always done and just start writing and see where it leads me...I think that might keep me writing more anyway. If I know myself then I would say so.
This post had no overall purpose but I would like to say I am grateful for everything I have and everyone around me. Happy Holidays and happy almost 2010 :)
