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Friday, February 26, 2010
It's All Good
It is definitely past my bedtime but since I had coffee at 2 this afternoon I am still reeling. I should know by now caffeine makes me a big nutball for way too many hours. Either way it has brought me back to my first and only true love, writing. Luckily today my blog is the victim of emotions on a once blank and innocent canvas.
I had a bit of a revelation tonight. Not quite an epiphany--those are the best, but it wasn't quite at that level. I had a heart to heart with one of my best friends and it made me realize one major thing about me at this point in life: I'm happy. I'm really, undeniably happy right now. Now the reason it's not an epiphany is because I already knew that. In fact, I have admitted it to myself a number of times. There are obvious reasons and not so obvious reasons for my utter happiness but as with most things in life it has to do with others around me. It is just the simple act of being able to say it so that I can truly believe it that makes it revalational. Life is all about relationships and I cannot help but take a look around and see all of the positive ones surrounding me. I cannot count the people I love on all the fingers and toes I call mine. I can't even count them on tripple that. It is truly unbelievable how blessed I am. How did I get such a good hand delt to me?
Somewhat recently I have joined a book club and as I knew it would, it has sucked me in. Mind, body and spirit. Completely. I am in love with it. I even wrote the bookies an emotional e-mail tonight telling them how much it meant to me. Telling them how much they meant to me. Which in turn got me thinking, why don't we do this more often? The book we are reading begs the same question, the authors asks, "And how can you say I love you to someone you love?" (ELIC p. 314). Although seemingly trivial, this is a completely legitimate question. Sometimes the words I and love and you just fill the air. They are just placed where they are needed. They are sometimes overused, missused or even just used. At the same time, why don't we say it more? Why can't we express our feelings how we want? How can we say these words without absusing them? The only conclusion I have come to with that is that we can is that we say it only when meant. And we say it in all truthfulness in our heart. And we know that no matter how many people come in and out of our lives there is always a place for them within our hearts. There is always more room to include those you love. And as my good old mom says, "You can never have too many friends". I agree, Mom.
As with all my ramblings there seems to be a lot of opposing ideas and unclear conclusions which I have decided I'm ok with because it's my mind and that tends to happen within the confines of our minds. Never is there a time when you come to an exact answer when it comes to questions about life. Never is a time where you will ever have it figured out. Never is a time where you stop learning about yourself. Never is a time where you stop growing. I have said it time and time again, but what fun would it be if you figured yourself out one day? What fun would it be if you had no more questions? Although exhausting, this is what life is about. Life is long and short all at the same time, but the thing that matters is how we live it. Time is a theme that comes up much too often in my writings yet it is something I will never truly understand. Something no one will ever conquer. So if you can't beat 'em, join 'em right? I have learned living in the past is painful and living for the future is wasted energy, so why not live for the NOW? Why not live for the present?
This is a daily struggle for most of us. We are always trying to gear up for what is to come with the things we have learned, hence future and past. Sometimes the most important thing to do is to stop, take a step back, breathe in and take in the beauty of it all. It has saved lives. It has definately saved mine. Not so much on a literal sense, but within myself it has. I would not be the person I am today if I didn't have a look around every so often and know that this is LIFE. And we need to truly live it. And even having said that I know I need to actually do it more. It can never happen too much. Sometimes I just want to hug the air that surrounds me and thank it for keeping me going. Sometimes I just want to high five the sky for just being there. And most of the time I want to thank the people around me for making it all worthwhile.
There is no reason I shouldn't be jumping out of bed every morning and singing something like "A Wonderful World" or whatever that song is called. Unfotunately, morning, no matter how late it is, isn't really my shining moment to sing a thing such as that. I'll work on that though. Maybe tomorrow. I'm just genuially excited for the future. I am excited for the things I will do, the people I will meet and the revelations or epiphanies to come.
And if that post doesn't make you want to barf, quite frankly my dear, I don't know what will :)
Either way.
It's good. It's all really good.
I had a bit of a revelation tonight. Not quite an epiphany--those are the best, but it wasn't quite at that level. I had a heart to heart with one of my best friends and it made me realize one major thing about me at this point in life: I'm happy. I'm really, undeniably happy right now. Now the reason it's not an epiphany is because I already knew that. In fact, I have admitted it to myself a number of times. There are obvious reasons and not so obvious reasons for my utter happiness but as with most things in life it has to do with others around me. It is just the simple act of being able to say it so that I can truly believe it that makes it revalational. Life is all about relationships and I cannot help but take a look around and see all of the positive ones surrounding me. I cannot count the people I love on all the fingers and toes I call mine. I can't even count them on tripple that. It is truly unbelievable how blessed I am. How did I get such a good hand delt to me?
Somewhat recently I have joined a book club and as I knew it would, it has sucked me in. Mind, body and spirit. Completely. I am in love with it. I even wrote the bookies an emotional e-mail tonight telling them how much it meant to me. Telling them how much they meant to me. Which in turn got me thinking, why don't we do this more often? The book we are reading begs the same question, the authors asks, "And how can you say I love you to someone you love?" (ELIC p. 314). Although seemingly trivial, this is a completely legitimate question. Sometimes the words I and love and you just fill the air. They are just placed where they are needed. They are sometimes overused, missused or even just used. At the same time, why don't we say it more? Why can't we express our feelings how we want? How can we say these words without absusing them? The only conclusion I have come to with that is that we can is that we say it only when meant. And we say it in all truthfulness in our heart. And we know that no matter how many people come in and out of our lives there is always a place for them within our hearts. There is always more room to include those you love. And as my good old mom says, "You can never have too many friends". I agree, Mom.
As with all my ramblings there seems to be a lot of opposing ideas and unclear conclusions which I have decided I'm ok with because it's my mind and that tends to happen within the confines of our minds. Never is there a time when you come to an exact answer when it comes to questions about life. Never is a time where you will ever have it figured out. Never is a time where you stop learning about yourself. Never is a time where you stop growing. I have said it time and time again, but what fun would it be if you figured yourself out one day? What fun would it be if you had no more questions? Although exhausting, this is what life is about. Life is long and short all at the same time, but the thing that matters is how we live it. Time is a theme that comes up much too often in my writings yet it is something I will never truly understand. Something no one will ever conquer. So if you can't beat 'em, join 'em right? I have learned living in the past is painful and living for the future is wasted energy, so why not live for the NOW? Why not live for the present?
This is a daily struggle for most of us. We are always trying to gear up for what is to come with the things we have learned, hence future and past. Sometimes the most important thing to do is to stop, take a step back, breathe in and take in the beauty of it all. It has saved lives. It has definately saved mine. Not so much on a literal sense, but within myself it has. I would not be the person I am today if I didn't have a look around every so often and know that this is LIFE. And we need to truly live it. And even having said that I know I need to actually do it more. It can never happen too much. Sometimes I just want to hug the air that surrounds me and thank it for keeping me going. Sometimes I just want to high five the sky for just being there. And most of the time I want to thank the people around me for making it all worthwhile.
There is no reason I shouldn't be jumping out of bed every morning and singing something like "A Wonderful World" or whatever that song is called. Unfotunately, morning, no matter how late it is, isn't really my shining moment to sing a thing such as that. I'll work on that though. Maybe tomorrow. I'm just genuially excited for the future. I am excited for the things I will do, the people I will meet and the revelations or epiphanies to come.
And if that post doesn't make you want to barf, quite frankly my dear, I don't know what will :)
Either way.
It's good. It's all really good.
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