Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Bedtime story

Time flies. Even if you aren't really having that much fun, I have decided that time flies no matter what. I don't really know where that came from, but I feel so old. Welp, summer is going. It's nothing extremely exciting, just the same old. When I'm not working I'm either swimming, at class or talking on the phone. After tonight I decided that I am really good at helping people fall asleep. So if you ever have trouble getting sleep, just call me and I am a guarenteed bore--I will for sure put you right to sleep. I got four in just one night! I'm on a role. Aint no stopping me now.

Well I have had a few days off from work and there is still way too much I have to do. Little things that always put a damper on the mood. I mean I have the whole day tomorrow, but there are a million things I should be doing--especially studying and oh how I am dreading that. In fact I need to just go write out a to do list. Well since I love my lists I am going to make one of some of the things I have done in the past few days:
-Block party
-Hung out with old friends
-Worked (and made some extra for a party!)
-Class
-Swam
-Talked on the phone
-Lifted
-Ate
-Got annoyed
-Got hyper
-Took a shower
There are some other things but I think I will let that be a mystery. I am quite mysterious.
Geeze, I am boring. I am even bored with myself. No wonder everyone fell asleep. I'm about to fall asleep writing this. But I will avoid the temptation because there is more to say.
Or is there?
Humm. There is stuff in my head, but I am not willing to write it all out. Too much effot. This is what I will do:

I am sad because I miss the friends I have lost, the memories will always be with me. Also I miss the innocense of childhood.
I am happy because I love the friends I have gained, and the memories that are to come. Also because I am so lucky to live the life I do.
I am nervous because I don't know what next year is going to bring--I don't even know what tomorrow is going to bring. Plus I have a math test coming up...
I am scared because I don't know if I will ever find the one. I don't know what I am going to do with the rest of my life and I don't know if I should take big risks.
I am excited because I know I have time to decide what I want to do, I am still young and have lots of time. I also know that I have a lot to look forward to.

Ok, I am getting tired of that. I think that I am so boring I am just going to go to bed. Maybe next time I won't put everyone including myself to sleep.

2 comments:

Chris said...

you didn't bore me to sleep... i was looking at porn while i was tlaking to you - ha, just kidding, i was actually looking at bike parts, no joke, i'm that lame...

jen said...

'planning the future is escapism' that's my favorite quote. i miss you tons.